BETTER THAN LIFE :)

Wednesday, August 31, 2005 :)

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm 2 steps behind
Somebody must have moved the finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Thought of this song yesterday while looking out in the rain. Waiting for the Malay kias to come back to class. Sang it softly, enjoying the view. Dang, Corrinne May's songs are those that make sense today. And they're nice too =) jia you!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:39:00 pm

Mmm... these few days have been really... different, I would say. Things have been happening; and they've been making me see things in a different light. A better light, or is it worse? Aiee. Not too sure myself =S

I think on Tuesday during Science, yeah, Tuesday. Mr Tan suddenly started talking about eyes. Cos William was rubbing his. Then Mr Tan said that in some third-world countries chillun are actually tricked?.. Mmm, like, these evil guys approach kids and ask them to stare at a bamboo pole. Then they put it real close and shove it into their eyes real hard so the eyeballs drop out. _ I was totally grossed out. Cringed and contorted my face (which came naturally, really) It's totally sick. He said that it was cos our eyes are held by very... thin/frail/weak muscles. Eew can? Was rather... disturbed for say, 5 minutes? Hey, that's long ok. Wurgh. Where's the love in the world!? Argh. Still irks me to type this. Change topic.

Went to the old folks home yesterday kia. Sunlove Home! Yeah, sounds nice. Unfortunately Charmione kia and Emily kia couldn't make it -_- So my team consisted of Naim, Gloria, me (obviously), and William joined us. Not that it made any difference cos in the end we worked as a class. Half of a class, to be specific. Cooked in school. Took more time than 'predicted'. Ms Faten ended up cooking bee hoon for us =P vermicelli, rather. Haha. Really was delicious can? And I was eyeing it with like, -red eye- nah, envy. How my stomach hungered for it. -sigh- went without lunch. how very noble, marianne! yesyes i know, thank you very much.

So, got to Buangkok. -cheers- neutral emotions when I got off the bus. Lined up in 2s -_- nice. Haha. Got a 'warm welcome' by a rather normal looking 55+ year-old.

Her: Who are you?

Miss Faten: Oh, we're from Hai Sing Catholic School? Here to visit?

Her: Visit what? The building ah?

Students: -turn back and give the WHAT!? face-

Miss Faten: Oh, no. Is Mr Charles here? etc etc bla bla bla.

So anyway. Our dear beloved teacher was led through this very depressing gate into a walkway that was like all gated/fenced up. We were like 'Miss Faten! NOOOOOOO!!!!' -exaggerations- haha. Funny. You know, 'GO IN AND NEVER RETURN' kinda crap? ya. funny.

Found out that woman belonged to the 'mental patients' section.. riggghhtt...

-cuts the crap- bla bla bla.

So went to join the old folks. Man alive, Faten forced us to sing. Naim and me had to go in first (cos we kay-kiang go and raise hands for our group to sing; before maine and em pang sehed us la) So anyway. So pai sei dinosaur can. So we decided to impromptuly sing 'You Are My Sunshine'. Letting Naim start = BIG MISTAKE. Haha. That joker sang the whole thing out of tune -_- Too shy to sing properly sia. Mumbling. WHOOPS =X So anyway.

NEXT SONG. Thank God Will and Khye An joined us. Sang what ah? We were so desperate we contemplated singing 'ABC'. Sang Twinkle twinkle little star instead -_- zzzz... Then finally KA came up with an ingenius suggestion - Make Me A Channel Of Your Peace. That one went quite well I guess.

So after the horror was over, they played some chinese songs and we were supposed to dance with them. Danced with Gloria at first, but saw Calista so spontaneously grabbing old folks and dancing happily with them - INSPIRED!!! Grabbed one for myself and started dancing. Well, looked for a normal one, to start with =P Uncle Kasim. Then another guy, whom I didn't get the name. Maia, if I got her name right, danced really well. She was the most normal la. Wait, she WAS normal. I mean, since she said I'm a good girl X) BEEHHHHEMM!!

Asked all of them for a dance but some were injured/whell-chair bound/didn't know what I was talking about. One took my hand and led herself to the food -_- haha. O well, I helped her!! =D

While KA and Naim very happily Tango-ed across us. Dancing like... gayly =P

So then we... OH YA.

We were singing halfway (scroll up please) when this old woman walked through. Like walked into another old woman who was standing up. TERROR CAN!? Like, just TAPPED her lightly, and the 'walking old woman' fell down. Then the 'tapped old woman' was like, after kena-ing tapped, stood there for a second before falling back. WAIIIITTT! THIS IS THE TERROR PART!!!

You know how when you fall back you tend to bend your legs and fall on your butt? Yeah. SHE JUST FELL STRAIGHT BACK! I was like, WHAT THE!?!?! Like those kinda really stupid magic shows (reminds self of Harry Potter) where they kena frozen and just fall back like that? without knees bending or anything? Yeah. GOSH. Faten and all of us were shocked. -gasp kia-

So served them food. Bla bla. Hungry kias such as Calista and myself coped some =S not that they finished everything anyway. And cos they had their dinner, our bee hoon was given to the psychiatric patients. -heart shatters- haha.

Bla bla. went to some 'heritage museum' in the old folks home itself. Kinda cool stuff there. -nods in agreement with self- heard some of Mr Charles' stories. Reminds me of those my dad told me. yeahh baby... -nods again-

So left the home soon enough. Talked to Calista on the way to the bus. Actually she's a nice kia. Very sociable and spontaneous. We're usually socialising about God/related issues. Haha. Interesting kia to talk to la =)

Crapped on the bus. With Faten. haha. Got back to school and rushed to minimart to get some food to fill my empty stomach. Gosh, the security guard was closing the main gate, so I tried to run through. To my horror...

-attempts to run thru closing gates-

S.G: Oi, don't be stubborn ah!

Me: -confused/shocked/contorted/what-in-the-world/pai sei/ shucksed/goshed face-

Naim/Alan: Wah marianne, stubborn ah! -wei chieh tone-

Diao sia. I wasn't trying to be defiant/stubborn/ naughty/mischievous or anything!? zzz... Oh well. -sings last line of 'malcolm in the middle' theme song- Life is unfair.. haha.

Teachers' day celebration today was really good. Entertaining. Was locking Naim in class before that. Yeah Khye An! Mission accomplished!! ^5. Fun.

Went back to Tao Nan. Not many of my girl classmates went back sia. In fact, only 1 did. Pathetic. Met the guys later so we went to find the wonderful Miss Judy Koh together. Really happy to see her. Love her loads. Best teacher ever sia =) She remembered most of us, yay! =D we made an impact! haha. good/bad ways la, hor? To think she still remembered my background, about choosing schools cos of my results etc etc. -cheers-

Pai sei dinosaur, here's a long post for ya =D hehe. Equivalent to 3 short posts la. I think. Estimation not very accurate, I know. But oh well. If you actually read it, WHOOOAAA =) haha.

So until I blog again, try not to miss me. Take care!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:48:00 pm

Monday, August 29, 2005 :)

Grrrr... this stupid blog takes AGES to upload photos. So here's just one for ya =)

Mmm, dear brother and adorable cousin =) taken on the colourful stairs which is coming apart. AHHH!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:21:00 pm

Lalala. Interesting day. Had a nap!! <--- it's been a long time since I've done that, and so far, I haven't done anything I've been hoping to do today. SHUCKS.

Ok, supposed to do art. Make someone special something. -recalls- Watch the wonderful video Maine and Emily compiled. THANKS KIAS I LOVE YOU!! really sweet. Short but, it's so nice! And Khye An looks good with braces, strangely. Brother andI burst out at his sudden smile. Nice =) 'May the Funk be with You'. Totally. =D -cheers-

Lets see, got English and Math back today. Quite happy la =) NAIM TOPPED ENGLISH CAN!! tyco =P lost to him by half a mark.. from my summary =P awww! Haha. Then did that stupid ^5 thing across the class. Bui Tahan XP

Math not bad. Unexpectedly... B3 la, but for the amount of marks I left out. -cheers- haha. Unfortunately, that doesn't change the fact that I still hate graphs.

Hmmm... think I'm losing out. Like, a lot. Being trashed at every single subject now by my classmate. -grabs hair- except English. Ahhh. Hopefully chionging after September holidays will help -hopeful face-

Had some major brawl in class. Hey dude, relax. This ain't your home you don't just go whacking people and shouting like that. It's not nice. At least the other guy didn't lose his cool. Tsk. Where's the love man? Cheer up =)

Just had dinner. -fullness kia- Dad was telling us about this Punggol Sec School boy being beaten up by some bullies who couldn't deliver punches properly.. Asked what my brother and I would've done (since my mum wasn't there, in hospital <--- visiting people la)

Anyway, thanks to everyone for all the presents; Charmione, Emily, Wey Zi, Kathryn, Cheryl Ho, Sir Bong, Alan... did I miss anyone out? Thanks so much =) (wait wait, not forgetting the church kias) Evangeline kia, Kimberly kia, Daryl Boey kia, Shaun kia, Amanda kia, Desiree kia, Claudia kia, Justin my dear beloved brother kia, Jon Ma kia, Aunty Edwina, Aunty Siok, Aunty Carol Ma.... Mmm. did I miss anyone out? hopefully not =) THANKS TO ALL!

Got really exceptional gifts, bought/made with love -draws big heart-

Got this wonderful video of the birthday surprise, with personal messages and photos and stuff =) On a nice cd... heh-heh, idea seems familiar sia XP THANKS!!

Also got this head-bobbing cute thingy with Japanese/Korean instructions =P Cute. But wait! That's not all! -advertisement voice- Haha. There was this hand-made card which was really lovely. Had two poems on it with some 'secret message' in one of em + another hand-made keychain with my name =DD Whoa right!! THANKS so much to my "special someone" =) Thanks for the effort! "made with love" haha.

Then got this really cool wind instrument thing. Used to have something like that but it broke! -grin- Friend said the face on it looked like mine, RIGHTTT. So maybe that's the special significance in it aiee? =P And it was from someone I'd never expected to give me something; THANKS a lot to Cheryl Ho and Kat Loke =D -cheers-

Haha. Got a pack of coloured metallic pens from Alan XP Actually already have that, but no worries! REPLENISH SUPPLY!! XD it's the thought that counts la. THANKS DUDE! =)

Hmmmm, got this cross pendant from Sir Daryl Bong. 'Mood Pendant', it seems. You know, those mood ring thingies? Yeah, this one's a pendant. COOL!! =D (don't think that was from the school bookshop, was it?) haha. And what's that written behind the cross? -ponders- THANKS SIR!! -salutes- (and i seriously don't know where the sir thing came from...)

Lalala. I think that's all right? heh-heh. Shall not continue to make your face any greener, well, hopefully it is =P

I love all the stuff la =D Thanks so much everyone! -hugs and kisses-

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:31:00 pm

Sunday, August 28, 2005 :)

Thanks to EVERYONE who has made my special day so special!! =D

Thanks especially to my parents, for guiding me through every stop of my life.

Thanks to my dearest brother, for always being so patient with me.

Thanks to all my wonderful buddies in 2E1, you guys totally rock my world!

Thanks to all my awesome relatives, you guys are real funny people.

Thanks to all those choir kias, who have made choir practices so fun.

Thanks to all the KPC YOUTHS, for being such quirky (in a good way) people.

Thanks to my teachers, who have imparted so much knowledge to me.

Thanks to the fans of the IMH, I won't elaborate, so pai sei =P

Thanks to all you guys who have been so faithfully reading the rubbish I blog about.

Thanks to all my friends, ALL, who have touched me =) (not literally of course)

And to all these special people, especial thanks goes out to you: Charmionie, Emily, Khye An, Naim, William, Koong Jye, Gloria, Alan, Daryl Bong, Wan Ling, Steph Yeo, Wendy, Felicia, Priscilla, Jing Ming, Yan Xuan, Adele, Shaun kia, Evangeline kia, Melvin kia, Melissa kia, Desiree kia, Kimberly kia, Justin kia =P, Jon Ma kia, Amanda kia, Samuel kia, Daryl kia, Ben Goh kia, Kathryn, Weyzi, Sarah Cockerill :), Laetitia monkey (who is way too young to read this), Yu Hang Choops, Miko-milo-ho, and my dearest Mum, Dad, Corcor, Nathan, Hannah, Kevman, Darrell =)) I LOVE YOU GUYS =)

Anyway, today was great again. Worship went pretty well, from my point of view. Lets see... had a birthday celebration. For JANUARY TO AUGUST babies... -_- haha. A LITTLE late... but.. haha. Lots of saliva on the cake aiee? But it was really good. XP magical touch of saliva -_- eew.

Went for lunch. Parents brought a cake to the COFFEESHOP! -faints kia- Shocked me ok. These people are FULL of surprises... haha. Anyway, Evan very intelligently went to scatter jelly beans over the cake and I was supposed to use my mouth and eat them! (Sorry to the people who kena the pieces which had jelly beans on 'em =P) Ingenius ah kia =D Fun la. Hehe. So went around the coffeeshop delivering cakes... funny sight.

Then went to Cousin's/Mama's house. (Mama = grandma) Did some writing there, wanted to do something else but decided against it cos of fatigue. Slept real late this morning. 2am? aiee. Went to watch tv with my dad, some sports competition. You know, something like the olympics. Highly entertaining. It rocks la, watching people run and jump and throw puts or whatever =P Shiok to watch.

Fell asleep lying on the couch. Didn't even know my cousins came home la. Until I heard them talking. So got up (didn't wanna waste my birthday away) and watched tv with them -_- haha. It's the bonding la =D took a few pics on their colourful stairs, kinda nice. OH YEAH OH YEAH!! HOW COULD I FORGET!!!!!!

My presents =) I tell you, KPC youth kias are full of funny nonsense =P Got lots of really cool presents, for example, WONKA'S GOODIES!! Didn't know they existed, but totally melted like. WHOA. I mean, totally liquidified... -shoves chocs in fridge- and Desiree and Amanda and Claudia were so funny la. Gave me this 'Chamelon' PLASTIC BAG. With something inside, apparently my birthday present shared by 6 kias. Looked like a hairband. Took it out and it was this red, kiddish one with strawberries, cherries and stuff on it. SO NICE LOR. Wore it =P See? I'm like, so sweet. Right. Aiya, just let me praise myself for today ok? XD Anyway, they took out the REAL present which was like WHOA KIA. Shaun's kinda earphones. SO NICE CAN!!!!!! (no wonder my bro took mine yesterday...)

Thanks all you guys! I LOVE YOU! =) REALLY.

Anyway, cut cake AGAIN. Nice coffee cake with walnuts =) Yum. Went for dinner at ulu Punggol Marina. Some western restaurant. Nice food =) Filled me up. Water was on the house!! =D -cheers-

On the way back, saw a beautiful sunset. The clouds were spectacular. Like, blue, purple and orange. 3 layers. Awesome. Beautiful clouds. =)

This birthday's been great. The best. REALLY. I mean, it's not just an every-year-I-say-this kinda thing, this year's really been the best XD thanks to all my great friends!!

The best thing isn't the presents of material stuff, but for the love you've shown and the effort you've put in, thank you so so much =)

Once again, I HEART YOU!!!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:46:00 pm

Saturday, August 27, 2005 :)

I LOVE MY FRIENDS. TO BITS. I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!

I LOVE YOU!!

You guys totally made my day. Totally =) Obviously. The best friends I could ever have!!

To my "4eva lover/deer"Charmion(i)e, my never-failing-to-comfort Emily, my "really really really really really really really really good fwen" Naim, my last-year-best-guy-friend Alan, my never-failing-to-comfort-emily's-boyfriend Koong Jye (who has been a great friend too), my ever-generous William, and my very-fun-and-entertaining-joker Khye An, thank you so, so, so, SO, much for making my day so, so, so, SO special!

Lets rewind.

After piano lessons (which didn't go too well as theory = work+scolding, not a very nice combo) my dad picked me up and we headed back home. Stopped by downtown east to buy my brother lunch, which strangely consisted of only cheese fries, bought from, strangely, downtown east (when we were at Parkway). So anyway, headed there. Then my dad gave my mum a call.

Dad: Uh, we're buying Justin lunch from KFC then we're coming in. Ya. Bye.

Me: Huh? Mum's downtown?

Dad: No. Do you want to come with me or wait here?

Me: Mmm. I think I'll wait here la.

Dad: I think you'd better come help me buy the fries for corcor (i love to spell it that way so don't laugh, it has its significance) while I buy lunch for Mum.

Me: Oh ok. -hops out of the car-

-strolls downtown while talking about Tamiya Cars-

-walks past reception-

Very high-pitched, soft, but Charmainy voice: Happy Birthday Marianne! (ok, so I only heard MARIANNE cos I don't really go eavesdropping but obviously I'd recognise my name)

-turns and stares blankly at source- (didn't even see them, was looking PAST them)

-spots Charmaine smiling retardedly-

-spots Emily smiling retardedly-

-spots a few others behind smiling nervously-

-spots Mum grinning with satisfaction-

Very high-pitched, loud and Charmainy voice, aka Charmaine: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIANNE!!

Man alive, was I shocked! Huh? Huh? Who are they? -to think I thought of that- How come they know I'm here? How come Mum's here? How come ALL of them are here? Where's Dad? Huh? Confusion Kia ok. So I finally realised they'd planned a surprise. And MAN ALIVE WAS I SURPRISED!! Really happy to see people like Khye An and Naim there, usually they didn't go out with us. WOOOO!! =)

Took some shots with me smiling like, weirdly (BUT nicely, for that matter =P) Was really grinning like an idiot. Had a tiny cake which we TRIED to cut into 8, ended up a mess X) but it tasted good, delivered with love.

So we went to ESCAPE, not literally, but I mean the theme park, you know. (no wonder my Mum asked if I had homework.. mischief sia =P) WOO HOO!! Really, totally ROCKED MY SOCKS.

Went on Pepsi first, woo! Love it. Then again. Woo again! Love it again! Maine and I were screaming like freaks. Lets see.

Me: 1 2 3 we scream 'Mummy!' k!

Maine: OK!

Me: 1.. 2.. 3..

Unison: MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!

Maine: 1 2 3 'Daddy!' ok! 1.. 2.. 3..

Unison: DADDY!!!!!!!!!!

-spots lush green trees-

Me: -bursts out laughing- 1 2 3 we shout 'LEAF!' ok!

Unison: LEAF!!!!!!! (oh man, I'm telling you, this is KUNG POW-ISH)

But anyway, had a great time screaming out throats sore.

Cadbury inverter was funny la. While we were waiting, the railings were shaking like there was an earthquake or something, and occasionally when the thing went upside down, droplets of.. things, came falling from people.. -___- Hopefully it wasn't saliva. Or vomit, for that matter.

Went on it, totally rocked. Saw a whole pool of water down under. Didn't really look slimy or whatever so... =P

Went on Panasonic, which totally rocked. Took the front with Khye An, who took the left. Dang. Should've taken that seat, SUPER TERROR!! Remember taking that seat before, kept feeling I'd fall off any moment. Now THAT, my friends, is ADRENALINE. Shiok! Kept flying off my seat sia. Panasonic Rocks.

Then went on what, wet and wild, wild and wet, whatever la hor. Super fun. Screamed while going up -_- Funny =P Made all kinds of retarded faces and because we weren't wet enough, we = maine, me and emily, splashed each other. Like SIAO. So came out, soaked right through. Guys watching us from above were laughing. Haha. We were shouting '2e1 ROCKS' on the way down la. How patriotic =P

GO CARTS. -SENSES GROWING ADDICTION- -SCREAMS HEAD OFF- -BANGS KEYBOARD- SGDNVAW;VP WIY yeah, you get the point. IT ROCKS!!! I was kinda nervous at first, since I'd never driven one and I was the first to leave. But man alive, you know, especially for people who are natural drivers -COUGH- they get the hang of it once they step on the pedal? Yeah yeah, so there I was, speeding away. Swerved a lot due to my very very PROFESSIONAL SKILL and lack of brakes, for that matter =P But I loved swerving, that's what made it fun. Apparently Emily caused a major traffic congestion behind by driving like she was drunk. Haha. No wonder I didn't see anyone behind me.. -ponders- or was I just too fast? haha. But Alan caught up. Woo!! =D GO CARTS RULE!!!

So played a lil more before I had to leave for dinner with my relatives. Went to spagheddies at the Paragon CAN = shiokness kia!! Had an awesome meal. Some Italian cake for dessert, which was like a chocolate cake with hot, chocolate fudge oozing... SHIOK!!!!! Heavenly. And dessert (and water) was on the house =) Birthday girl kia right.

Hehe. To think I thought my birthday really was gonna be a non-event. YOU GUYS MADE IT SPECIAL!!!!! THANKS SO SOOO SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!

-runs over and hugs every single friend-

And to my other very special friend, thanks for being so understanding, and I PROMISE A NECK!! XD promise!! -sticks out pinkie-

Ok then, got work to do now. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! God bless you man =)

I HEART YOU!!!!!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:25:00 pm

Friday, August 26, 2005 :)

Wahaha. For once I have almost nothing to talk about =P

Okok fine, I have NOTHING to talk about.

Well maybe I DO have something to talk about, which is having NOTHING to talk about.

My brother once did a literature project about NOTHING. Now now, I believe THAT is something isn't it? I mean, would YOU be able to do a powerpoint presentation about NOTHING? Maybe the furthest you could go would be having 10000000000 blank slides, which = NOTHING. But then again, that'd be boring.

Argh. It is irritating talking about NOTHING. Wait, actually it's fun to talk about NOTHING. But it must be really boring to read about a lamer talking about NOTHING. Well, actually I AM talking about SOMETHING.

I find this seriously lame. So I shall talk about something.

Somebody seems in a bad mood today.. (not me, for your information, thank you very much) I mean, if I could crap so much, obviously I'm ok =P or maybe I'm not -pulls horse face- righhhttt. Maybe because I came across as 'defiant' last night, when I really wasn't trying to be. Ok, gotta try and change that part of me now. GET OFF THE COMPUTER, MARIANNE!

Okok. The little voice in my head won't let me forget.

God bless =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:04:00 pm

Thursday, August 25, 2005 :)

Wee! Enjoying the second day of exam-freeness... haha. Whatever? Lol.

Argh. Tired and not sleeping. Stubborn me. Tsk. That's what I don't like about myself. Think this blog has got me more hooked to my computer.. zzz..

Another great day today.. Less interesting events cos now Naim's sitting further away -smacks forehead and faints- But anyway, class still rocks. =)

Not too bad a day I must say, though I was a little let down by my friend.. and being unable to hide my emotions, I wrote it on my face, and she thought I was 'acting angry'. zzz... i don't act angry la... kia.

Lets see. Chionged for the bus this morning. Serves you right Marianne, nobody asked you to dilly-dally getting ready. Yeahyeah.

Lessons were funny. Don't know how we started talking about Osama. Osarmar. Whatever =P Anyway. So Azman starting calling Omar 'Omar Bin Ladin' then -___- 'Cexi Bin Foo' what the?! -whole class bursts out laughing- what utter rubbish man =P but then again, I LOVE IT.

Mmm... art was funny. Interesting stuff happen during art lessons, aiee? =P Anyway, Bong wanted to borrow my eraser, so seeing that he was only 1.5m away, I threw it to him. And he conveniently dodged it. NOW YOU KNOW WHY I DON'T TRUST YOU CATCHING THE KEY!?! Zzz.. took the eraser back cos I needed it, he borrowed it again. And dodged it again. Oh Daryl, NEVER BE A GOALKEEPER.

Then Naim, sitting in between Bong and me, suddenly had this horror-striken look splashed right across his face. And for once, it seemed so real. Shocked me, really. Then he suddenly started stammering and pointing and gasping. And the moment he pointed, I relaxed. He was (as usual) overexaggerating his responses la. My earring was overturned, so he hyperventilated. Haha. But anyway, Thanks Naim! -typical response- You're welcome Marianne! Haha.

Continued talking about postcards for our competition. First prize = $400!!! $_$ woo. Uh oh. Anyway, cher said something about picnics being a gathering, guess what the guys said? HAHA! PICNIC - THE GATHERING!!!! HAHA! zzz... funny, but lame =P

Anyway, got back my Chinese paper. Did I just say it was exceptional? Almost failed =P At first I got a B4, which was like, okok la. Then realised that the teacher added 2 extra marks.. -slumps- Saddified kia ok.. Thus, due to the good morals Tao Nan School instilled in me (free advert here), I went to tell the teacher. Back in primary school if you did something as honest as that you'd get red marks/merit points and stuff. But honestly, who in secondary school does that? Sigh. Do what's right kia. Ok kia. No regrets la. At least I know where I stand =)

Was imitating otters with Charmione during Math. Funny. 2 idiots squealing like, otters. Haha. Right smack in the middle of the class. zzz...

OK. another long post there =P pai sei dinosaur. And realised EVERYONE'S catching the kia thing after reading my blog/talking to me A LOT. Haha. Drain kia, leaf kia, school kias crossing, son kia, dad kia, whatever kia =P funny kia.

Okok. I need my 'beauty sleep' RIGHHT. Good night, kias!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:46:00 pm

Wednesday, August 24, 2005 :)

Hey sorry kia, no inspiration to write for YOU =P must wait until the feeling is write then I can write the best stuff ever right... haha. Wait long long ok X) you could start on mine anyway aiee? heh.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:34:00 pm

Yay! Tests are finally over! =) Nah not really finally, haven't been chionging like a siao kia for ages or anything, just the past few days... =P Current state: tired and hungry.

Weird, I'm becoming hungry easily these days. (Side effects of SHIITake essence eh?) and my bladder increasingly weak.. <--Jing Ming can be consulted about this. Went to the toilet like, what, 3 times during choir practice yesterday. SIAO KIA.

Lessons have been funny.. occasionally (well guess who's the joker? how predictable aiee. haha) like when, Tuesday, also better known as yesterday. During Science, Mr Tan was telling people to buck up and stuff. Suddenly...

''Oh Naim! And you should stop all your rubbish ah?'' said Mr Tan, the most accusing finger arrowed directly at THE BLACK BOY.

''Har? Cher! But I haven't even started!'' cried Naim, the look of innocence wiped across his face. How fake. But everyone was laughing anyway. Mmm...

Time flied yesterday. WHAT THE!?! Sorry, I mean, time flew yesterday.. shucks -_- I thought it was like 8+am. You know, the weather totally rocked... 'it was a dark and stormy night..' -Naim's favourite line to start a compo. Just change 'night' to 'morning'. So yeah, we had 2 papers before recess so everything seemed to go WHOOSH. Looked at the clock 11.34 and ticking. -contorted expression- HUH? PHOOOAAAA!

And I finally, finally, FINALLY understand Naim's frustration. Felt it yesterday during Math lesson. Mr Rahmat went through this 'impromptu sum' and spent 15 minutes on it. He didn't even know how to solve it!?! zzz... so I was cracking my head, and when I thought I understood, he confused me again. Yes Naim, I finally understand why you say listening to him gets you more confused. Kept singing 'ass like that' with Emily.. changing lyrics to suit the situation. See la, influence doesn't do good.. But anyway, after all that, he said 'er -insecure laugh- we don't look at this first lah ha? Cos I think something's wrong with the question. ha.' zzz...

Anyway. Gosh, this is gonna be another super long post. Pai sei dinosaur =P

My tests aren't too bad. Everything's quite ok except for MATHS. Gosh, one I was expecting to score well for. And chinese. CHINESE. CHINESE WAS EXCEPTIONAL. I can't believe it, I didn't even fall asleep. Was really happy that I finished the paper =) -cheers- fell asleep during Geography though.. but that doesn't matter xP whoa, attitude.

Wrote this Chinese essay impromptu-ly for cher.. hope she doesn't get offended. Cos it was like 'why should youngsters take initiative?' when she was real angry with our class cos it was in a mess. So I kinda went one round and shot back at adults =P I mean, my essay made sense, I tried HARD not to make it seem on the offensive. Tried. Hopefully it isn't but I kinda liked it... zzz...

Oh man. I think I've crapped enough. More than enough. Who actually reads man.

And Choops said when I write, I actually talk, and that's why I write like this. SMART KIA =) Observant.

Anyway. Thanks for reading (if you are which is highly doubtable)

OH YA! -sees audience pulling long face-

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to Marianne LEE
Happy birthday to you!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:07:00 pm

Monday, August 22, 2005 :)

Woo hoo! Today was kinda good. Last night too really.

I love my brother man =P he makes my day. Really fun having him around. Imagine if I were the older kid, I sure wouldn't be who I am now man. Haha. Was playing all kinds of crap with him last night; contorting faces and stuff. Horrendously funny. Both our faces can like twitch in all kinds of odd angles? Making stupid grins. Couldn't stop laughing. Currently singing 'One Day' with him whacking the sofa as drums.. Innovative.

Today was really fun. English was quite ok, Chemistry too. Just that I checked my Chem paper so many times I really wanted to sleep but couldn't bring myself to. Tsk.

Cooked macaroni cheese =P SHOKE! niceness kia right. Mrs Choo was back to herself today.. or was she just NOT herself last week? -ponders- Anyway, decided to just eat everything since the rest I brought home was just chucked in the fridge or something. Then Mum was like 'ok lor.. don't let me try lor.. ok lor..' Haha. Funny x)

I hereby declare that I love the Hui family. =) WOO HOO!

Anyway. Studied with Charmione today. Went to Burger King after lessons ended. Koong Jye freaked us out man. So pale and sweaty and stuff. Really looked horrible. Take care aiee?

Anyway, walked to downtown east with Charmione deer, Naim and William. FUN. As usual. I mean, how can it not be fun with all these jokers around. Crapped all the way with Naim. The usual la. Slangs and accents and what not. Funny. Just had an ice cream (kinda difficult to eat with Naim around) Cos of all the macaroni cheese in my stomach. Really funny la. Was taking all kinds of retarded pictures with William's phone. Which reminds me I want one with a CAMERA. Actually really love mine a lot -hugs phone- eew. Anyway, ya, but it just lacks a camera.. what a waste. Lol.

Attempted to study there. Naim was asking questions about what, FACTORISATION!? dood, we ain't tested on them. But anyway, tried to help him as I studied geography. Finally left cos it was too noisy. Sorry, whose bright idea was it to study there? =P Kidding la. School's still best so we went back there. Finished studying Geog at -counts- 5.40. WHEW. So went with Charmione to photocopy notes. She took mine, I took hers. =P Teamwork! Unity kia right!

Mmm.. had a fun time at Whitesands (how often does THAT happen) We were kinda waiting for some entertainment.. saw my friend there and this other girl who happens to be going after him =P funny. He's been trying dodge her. So anyway. She was coming down from the 3rd floor and he was on the 2nd. -insert excitement here- and he was still hovering around. Then, to our horror, she suddenly grinned like, weirdly, and clapped her hands like a kid. You know, like when you get something and you're going 'YIPPEEE' or something. And it was so loud we heard it from the other side. Burst out laughing.

Unfortunately, she disappeared. So disappointed kias right. No entertainment for the evening, but yet another mystery to uncover. Where did the girl disappear to? Hmmm...

-stomach rumbles- Argh. Hungry kiaesauraus rex. And I still don't know how to spell that la. -_- Oh no, it's 8. Gotta chiong history can... -stress- I love this. Haven't felt compelled to study in so long. WOO HOO! =)

I'm Lovin' It!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:58:00 pm

Sunday, August 21, 2005 :)

Which means 1. Eating fire. 2. The fire that consumes.

Funny ah somebody =P

Mmm.. today was pretty good. Church was awesome. But I'm kinda tired to talk about that now. What in the world am I doing here anyway. I should be recuperating for tests tomorrow!? -screams and grabs hair-

Ciao guys. And all the best to those who're having exams too =) JIA YOU!!

PS: There there Evan/Steph Dad, a short post for you xP

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:53:00 pm

Saturday, August 20, 2005 :)

Hey everyone =) in a much better mood now, lucky you. Haha.

Got up this morning in a horrible state. Went to bed last night in a horrible state ma. Some things were prowling on my mind, preventing me from behaving like myself. Sometimes I think I think too much (Charmione would know, sometimes being too smart has its disadvantages aiee? =P just kidding) but it really was disturbing... and thus, I was disturbed -_- zzz.. -quotes Jing Ming- 'Marianne you're lame man'. Ya I know.

Hmmm, it's normal for people to feel insecure right. I guess that's why God's always there =) To clear the doubt and make me feel safe. At times like this, there aren't many I can trust. I love Jesus.

Mmm, was kinda moody in the morning. Tuition stuff = boring. Did like, 3 passages only? Haha. Teacher was busy. Usually is on Saturday mornings anyway. Was so happy to walk down and see 196 turning. So just stepped up on my pace and got the bus. 2 stops later, I realised 'Left Behind 28' was still in my bag. Supposed to drop it off at the library.. zzz.. so got off and walked back. Go Marianne.

Got some piano stuff and pens from parkway.. suddenly all my pens decide to run out of ink at the same time, aiee? Conspiracy!

Decided I'd go home and eat so grabbed a cookie from Famous Amos =P those big soft cookies which cost the same as a cheeseburger -_- Shiok. Was shocked to find that the 'lady' sounded exactly like a man. Really looked like a woman. Oh man, what's wrong with the world.

Went for piano and of course the teacher asked about the exam. -anxiety creeps into her eyes- oh well. She thinks I'll pass, but I really played much better at her house than in the examination room. Oh, -quotes Kim and our old day hand exaggerated actions- 'to hell with you!' Right.

And for the first time ever, theory was fun. Started on Grade 6 stuff. Again. =) Learnt about chords and thanks to playing keys in church, it was chicken feed. (Yes Shaun kia, thank you too) like, she gave me this exercise which I finished in 3 minutes and she came back 10 minutes later and said 'eh? finish already? so fast ah?' Ya.

Phone was vibrating so much in my pocket la. Ticklish xP Smses, calls, smses, more calls. Met up with Sarah! After what, more than a year. Miss that girl, my ex neighbour at Marine Parade. Didn't even get to see her much back then; she's from England and only comes back during her holidays. So had impromptu lunch with her and went back to her house, my old block WOO HOO! And saw the monkey =) LAETITIA WOO HOO! Adorable. And alexandre who's walking already. Adorable. I just love kids.

Was intending to study, but only got home at 6 I think. Almost missed my stop at Boon Keng. Decided to sleep on the bus and wake up at 5.15. I did, and went back to sleep. Woke up at my stop -groggy- -glances around- -eyes close again- -eyes open- KFC? -eyes close- KFC!! -rushes to door and hops off- Whew, Thank God. Pai sei pai sei.

So got home. Got down to history. Then Literature. Atticus rocks. Wait, the writer rocks cos she wrote the book. Who's the writer again? -blink blink- His arguments ruled man. Cornered Mr Tate. Got me hooked on that part. Woo hoo! Chapter 17 guys, go read it! =)

-logs in to moreatonce- busy kia gotta do work now!

Let it go; let it be.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:58:00 pm

All right, today's really been one hell of a day.

Literally, hell. Well, just a teeny weeny bit of it. Okay, maybe not that teeny. But man alive, it's been a really traumatizing day. In a few ways.

Was super duper tired. Couldn't help but sleep during LP. Sorry Mdm Kamaria, I was just exhausted, and the lesson was torturingly... painful. Shocked quite a few people huh, Chairman sleeping -_- zzz.. i'm human too.

Science was hell. HELL. We went down 15 minutes late since LP ended late. So Mr Tan was a lil angry about that but he didn't blame us. Then well the frustration progressed until a point of time when he just exploded. Major atomic bomb. Shocked me. Felt so much for him I almost wanted to cry. Could see his face contort with anger and hatred at a particular point of time. That's when he made his move. Seriously, I think we might've gone too far. But it really isn't the whole class's fault, just those few guys who always get into trouble. And I guess that really affects Mr Tan A LOT. I mean, he's tolerated enough man. More than enough. Come on, the poor guy has so much to do, a family to look after, an almost new-born baby to care for. Give him some peace, guys.

Honestly, I don't think I've been a very good chairman. At all. Kinda disappointed at myself now that I think of it. Don't think I've done a very good job looking after the class. Haven't even got a stupid dustbin for more than a month now. How deprived we are.

And I don't think I've been a very good vp either. I don't know, maybe it's just cos Adele hasn't been giving us much to do, but I don't think I've been a very good SL either. Maybe it's cos I learn too fast. I mean, really. I get the tune quickly and the rest are slower so I don't know exactly where they are. Which is a disadvantage. So if any A1s are reading this now, please help me all right.

Jee, suddenly feeling like such a failure. And I think I'm probably gonna fail my piano exam. Seriously. I realised how much faith people have in me. To all those who've been encouraging me and telling me I definitely won't fail, thank you. Thank you for believing in me. I guess in the end it doesn't really matter, I could take it again if I really do fail. But it'd be a waste. And I'd be super pai sei. But then again, since I've already warned everyone I might fail, maybe it won't be so bad after all. Bracing myself for the worst.

-breathes- I think I'm just tired. My eye is feeling like, weird. Like some weight is pulling my eyelid close. Oh dang, and I just forgot I was supposed to send off an email. Help.

Oh God, help. MUST. FOCUS.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!12:13:00 am

Thursday, August 18, 2005 :)

Hey kias! Okay, so I'm finally blogging about my week. It's really been a crazy one. Busy kia-esauraus rex!

Lets see, main events of the week.. obviously my piano exam la -_- what a long post about it. Forgive me, I just crap a lot. A LOT. X) Guess it's obvious enough.. haha. Anyway, I had to finish my umbrella, deadline: thursday. Piano exam: Wednesday. SO. whew, kinda squashed eh? Crammed my last-minute armbrella painting thingy to wednesday evening after my piano exam. Worked right through the night. Til what, 3 am? With a lil of my mum's help by the end (hey, like hello, I needed to sleep) So got exactly 3 hours of sleep. Zombified today..

Woke up kinda fine, surprised that I could actually wake up. But then I went to wash my face (as usual) and the water got in my eyes. Hurt like CRAP. Hurt so much I couldn't open them for a while. Really pain kia. Didn't really know what to do so just kept rubbing and adding water.. zzz.. squeezed them shut, tight, for a while then it got better gradually.. haha.

Then during art the teacher said she'd give an extention of the deadline for those didn't hand it in today. -annoyed- What on earth man. Was kinda annoyed at the injustice.. but then again, life is unfair. Haha. Anyway, I got full marks for it!! -screams head off- really thought it'd turn out horrid but in the end it wasn't too bad. Really happy about that =)

But then again, I think I'll tell you more about my greatly funny week XP Once again, thank God for the idiot directly on my right: Naim.

Today he said something that just cracked me up. And the whole class too, for that matter. I just couldn't stop laughing. Laughed until I was teary. TOO funny. I really admire his ability to be such a joker. You see, Veronika came into our class holding a Chemistry textbook. Apparently borrowed it from Elicia. Anyway it was towards the end of Miss Faten's lesson, so she just came in and returned the book with the permission granted by Faten. And Naim went on with his crap about her being rude for budging in during a lesson and interrupting a teacher, (his usual rubbish which can't be taken seriously). Then as she was leaving, he exclaimed with emotion contorted in his voice, "Goodbye, my sunshine!"

And with that, the whole class, including Faten and Veronika, burst into laughter. Where on earth did THAT come from!? Hilarious. Somehow he has some kinda crap with names. Helen =P

Oh yeah, before that Faten was showing us this descriptive compo about waking up. I mean, just a whole chunk of words about how a guy crawled outta bed and turned off his alarm clock. A WHOLE LOT. So anyway, she got Naim to act it out. Oh man. Was stomping on the floor laughing hysterically. His acting was kinda realistic at some points, others was just stupid. Intentionally. Or maybe it was just natural XP

Anyway. I think I've really gotta go rest those blood-shot eyes of mine. Fell asleep right in front of Jing Ming today. She asked me a question and I was thinking of the answer but fell asleep midway. Aiee.

Week so far's been great. Looking forward to next next weekend =P Until then..

Goodbye, my sunshine =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:37:00 pm

Wednesday, August 17, 2005 :)

WOO HOO! Finally. Finally. Finally. My. Piano. Exam. Is. Over.

Really relieved. I kinda screwed up the exam.. wait, I did screw it up. Real bad. But I still came out smiling like an idiot. It's such a heavy load off my tiny <3, you know? Haha. Came out and told me dad 'DIE DIE DIE. -hand chopping, finger dying action- DIE DIE DIE' with a retarded grin on my face. The typical retard-marianne grin. How ironic. Anyway, for the fun of it, let me describe how bad it was. =P Seriously, everything that could POSSIBLY went wrong did. Ow.

Lets see, I'd expected my scales to pull me up, really. Like hey, FOR ONCE!? Just ONCE it was gonna be my saving grace. Practised it like SIAO. At home, in school. Perfected everything. Well, almost everything for that matter... Screwed it up horribly. -grabs hair in frustration- Somehow I wasn't really very nervous (yay.), but my hands were cold although I wasn't. Worst thing was: BRAIN FREEZE. Like, totally forgot my scales. Eb harmonic minor a sixth apart. I remember practising it like mad cos I kept getting it wrong.. (practised just before going into the room on my invisible piano, mind you) Went in and totally forgot again -_- zzz.. got lots of mistakes for my scales. AHH. And the last one? I played the dominant seven arpeggio instead of the DIMINISHED seven arpeggio.. only realised it midway but didn't say anything.

Stupid me. First time I tried scales first before my pieces so... -sighs- supposed to help me with my pieces but.. apparently didn't, aiee?

So went on to my pieces. First one was a mess. REALLY a mess. The piano was so.. stiff. Keys were really hard to press (even the invigilator outside told me the piano wasn't good) So how? DIE. Gabra-ed more arpeggios.. and my page-flipping got in the way! blocked me from striking the keys which almost couldn't be struck la? Lol. So that piece, I'll probably fail it. Second was all right. Third too. Not that great really. Just passable? Mmm.

I think the examiner must've felt some sorta pity for me.. gave me an easy piece to sight-read. Which kinda relieved me, until I started playing it. They cut down the time from a minute to HALF a minute.. TERROR! The first part was totally messed up.. The middle was slightly better cos I got say, 2 notes in the bass clef right? -_- and I ended on the wrong chord. Go Marianne. So far so good.. going according to plan...

My last ray of hope. Aural. I guess it wasn't that bad? Cos I got my sight-singing totally right. PERFECT. PERRRFECT. Pretty shocked myself. And I realise the only time I naturally sing airy-ly/airily/air-e-lee/whatever, is during piano aural tests. Even with my teacher. Nervous kiaesaurus-rex right. But got it all in tune and on the right notes at the right time. YAY! Then he played a short extract, supposed to sing the bass line. Couldn't hear it. (as usual) I sang something which really wasn't anything he played (started and ended on the same note, that's probably all that was right) and watched in horrid fascination as confusion darted out of his eyes. Hmmm, looks familiar, I thought to myself. Exactly the same thing happened to the examiner last year. HAHA =D Mmm, missed a chance at the modulation! Got the subdominant minor part right, then he asked what key it was. From F minor to? C minor. C minor? Er.. B minor? B minor? -thinks hard... should be Bb minor, but there's no such key!?- Err.. ya, B minor.. -insecure giggle- It's Bb.. -cunning eyes- Felt like kicking myself. Kinda difficult really. How'd you kick yourself!? Mmm.. Now that's something you should go try aiee? =P

Sigh. So the exam really sucked, but I'm still really happy. Went to eat xiao long bao after that =P we were at the Paragon la? wahaha. I guess it's not time to worry... YET.. results in say a month or so. Possibility of failing.. but I'll just leave it in His hands. No regrets. Cos I seriously practised like siao. LIKE SIAO. (For 2 days, that is -_-) but it seemed like forever. Honest. So yeah, I'll just take whatever comes my way la hor? =)

And a BIG thank you to all who've been praying and encouraging me. All the JIA YOUs and YOU CAN DO ITs. Even from Mr Ng (the young, non-balding one) which really was encouraging. Thanks all you guys =D Love ya!

Think I'll give you guys a break. Eyes sore yet? =P Shall blog about the week's events soon enough. (Or so I say) Well if there's an overwhelming demand -WHOOAA, like that would happen- maybe I'll blog. Oh yeah, haven't told you guys bout the house in Sydney, aiee? MUST make you guys jealous. MUST. MUST.

But until then. Love what you have =) before you lose it.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!6:06:00 pm

Monday, August 15, 2005 :)

Ahhh. My stupid brother next to me! (contributed generously by him) zzz...

Ultra tired kia, can.. just practised a good 2 hours of piano. Emotionally, mentally, and physically drained. And I'm blogging. Okay, maybe not FULLY drained. Just taking a break before I get back to physicking. Sigh.

But mainly this is a post to get YOUR help. Yes, YOU! =P Please pray for me. I need it, a lot. I really wanna do well for this exam. (Piano exam's on Wednesday la) Yup. CRUCIAL. Final year, so yeah. Help! Pray that I'll have confidence and that my dingers won't.. argh. dingers. I mean, FINGERS, won't strike all the wrong keys, aye? And then we'll all witness how God works.. (hopefully, if it's in His will =P)

Thanks man.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:34:00 pm

Sunday, August 14, 2005 :)

And it hurts. A lot. Especially when you hold that special someone so close to you.

It just hit me. And I really never expected it to be so hard. I mean, I'm just letting go for a lil bit, but it seems so difficult. I want to do it, but it's not easy. 'The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak'? Now that you're finally focusing, I don't wanna be the one to hold you back. I don't wanna be the one to blame if you fail. So I'm letting go. And it hurts, really, I don't know why. Not like it's some major thing or anything, but it's just.. weird. I guess it's good. I think I've finally found something true, someone true. For the first time. And I just wanna let you know I'll always be right here; walking right next to you. If you ever feel you're gonna fall, you've got a friend to hold on to. =)

And then there's Tessa, who's just left for the States. I guess it doesn't seem like a big thing, but I believe you've touched all of us. All these years you've just been working behind the scenes in the Youth Ministry, planning activities, mentoring, surrendering your laptop into our hands... but really. To be gone more than a year, I really think I'm gonna miss you. For all the love and care you've shown to us, and for all the knowledge you've imparted, I'm gonna miss you. Study hard, and come back smarter <-- quoted Sam Soon.

And then again there's Emily, who'll be leaving at the end of the year. Now that's someone I'm really gonna miss. Dearie, I know you're not reading this, but I just wanna thank you for everything. You really are a great buddy; and so many times I've taken you for granted. So, so many times. My wrong. We've had so many great times together, and I really don't know how I'm gonna take it when you go. I'll probably be crying hysterically at the airport or something. It's gonna hurt. And I won't have your shoulder to cry on anymore. I don't know, everytime I'm down and out, you're always there. Somehow. And it's always comforting to know that you care, and it's always your shoulder I cry on. Always. I'm gonna miss that shoulder. A LOT. But I guess it isn't the end of the world, is it? GO GET MSN MESSENGER X)

Lastly, our dear Alexandrew. Touched e1 in many ways (so many that I really don't know where to start) Though you're not exactly very close to me, I believe I will miss you. After all, you are a friend, and you have stepped into my life and made a difference. Even the slightest one. Thanks for always being so encouraging and sarcastic (my fellow sarcastic buddy). Thanks for all the laughter you've brought to e1, with you teasing Miss Faten and stuff like that. And jumping to pull the screen down, intentionally revealing whatever weird-coloured boxers you have under there. Please don't do that in Australia. They might not like black =P Just kidding. I only say it cos I know someone as thick-skinned as you can take it. But anyhow, take care and bend it like Alex man =)

I guess friends really play a huge part in my life. Wait, I KNOW friends play a huge part in my life. Every single friend, be it a hi-bye friend, or one I can really relate to, thank you for being there. In any way. I guess I'll never really know/treasure you enough, until the day I see you walk out of my life. Someone please, wake me up.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:31:00 pm

Saturday, August 13, 2005 :)

What a title. XP Sorry, couldn't think of anything more... eye-catching!? zzz... Anyway. Went for tuition at Phang lao shi's yesterday. It was great.

I mean, for once, first time ever, I finished like, 6 passages in an hour and a half. Plus 2 of those ci yu xuan ze thingys. I don't even know what they're called. But anyway, was really happy about that, especially because I'm always so tired and worn out (not counting the fact that my Chinese is... lets not go there.) So that was some kinda major accomplishment.. then I went today and did one lesson -_- zzz... Hey, I was exhausted ok? =P -excuses-

But basically, I read something that kinda got me thinking. During chinese tuition. Extracted from a passage in the assessment book. WHOA! Marianne actually reads! Yeah, I do =P

Anyway, lets do away with the crap yeah? It was talking about how birds survived when they swam over the pacific ocean. I think it's the pacific ocean.. yeah. All they needed was just an ordinary twig in their beaks (oh no is that what it's called!?) mouths. Whatever x) but that's all they need. When they're tired they drop the twig in the water and land on a tree. Now, that's something I didn't know.

Then they moved on to how people survived but I can't really remember that part. The twigs thing kinda hit me. Isn't it amazing how something so simple could bring one through; could give one hope to overcome obstacles? Just like love =P -points down- I guess as long as you've got something to hope for, something to fall back on, you'll have the fighting spirit to live on. Maybe that's why people commit suicide, cos they're so into their problems that they forget there are others out there who care for them in subtle ways. Sometimes we just fail to realise that people care, just because they serve in the background. BIG MISTAKE...

Guess there were only 2 of us there at the table.. (teacher totally neglected the rest cos they were pissing her off with their noise) so she paid lots of attention to us. Then the other guy (some P6 kid from Tao Nan - WOO HOO!) sneezed. And he held it in. Like, you know, you sneeze and try to make it 'soundless' or something. Aiya, I know you know. You know I know you know so. yeah. So I tried to scare him with my knowledge of sneezing. That if you held it in it'd cause an inward explosion and if you did it too much or one sneeze was too powerful it could blow all your intestines out and you could die. (Read it in Degrees Of Guilt -wink-) Okay, so the blowing intestines out part is exaggerated. But yeah, was trying to get him worried. And my teacher was agreeing =P and adding on! woo! But really, it could kill. REALLY. So moral of the story?

SNEEZE OUT LOUD.

He did that, and his nose couldn't stop running from then on.

Moral of the story?

Never hold your sneezes in cos AFTER THAT you can't sneeze in peace =P

Whatever, Marianne, you're just great.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:06:00 pm

The other day, I was just showering and thinking. Hey, doesn't mean you can't do anything in the shower, right? So anyway, I was just wondering where I'd be if I didn't have love. In fact, where everyone would be if there wasn't love in the world. We wouldn't even exist.

I guess it took pretty long for me to realise that, aiee?

Everyone needs love. In one way or another. Be it the most rebellious delinquent; or the most cruel murderer, everyone needs love. There's no doubt about that. It kinda hit me that if there was no love, we wouldn't even be here. I mean, we'd all be dead. Wait, there wouldn't even be descendents from Adam and Eve. If they hadn't loved each other they wouldn't have well, reproduced.

Look at the times now. Everyone needs to socialise. You could deny it, saying that living alone in your own world wouldn't make the slightest difference. That's what you think, but every sane (probably insane as well) human would need love. People need love. People need hope. And love is hope. People without friends are so much sadder than those with friends. Just compare these two groups of people. It is true man. No matter how much you deny it. The truth is the truth.

I was just thinking. If one day, I wasn't loved anymore. Whoa, scary ain't it? Not to be loved? All your friends giving up on you, your family members suddenly giving you the cold shoulder. And the worst thing that could ever happen - God turning away from you. I read in a book, Degrees Of Guilt, some sort of series, about this very pious teenage boy who didn't fear that God was watching his every move, but instead, feared the thought that God wasn't watching over him. Amen.

We all need love man. First thing that pops up is romance ain't it? I'm not talkin about that kinda love. I mean, yeah, we do need romance, but really, God's love is what matters. Most.

What The World Will Never Take

With all I'm holding inside
With all hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt
With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all of me
I wouldn't have it any other way

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me WHOOA!
I wanna know, I wanna know You today
And You're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will NEVER take You away

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:53:00 pm

Friday, August 12, 2005 :)

Ninety miles outside Chicago
I can't stop driving, I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later, you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Cuz true love is just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
What the wind says when she comes
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninty-seventh time, tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know Why I wasn't meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

I want to take you to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

And someday I'll know if I am the one for you.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:58:00 pm

Thursday, August 11, 2005 :)

Today was good. Come to think of it, everyday's good. Thank God.

Let me just describe the class of 2e1 during math period. Now now, this is gonna be fun =P Hey, you never know what to expect, right? I mean, 2e1.. HOHO. nerds. Yeah, whatever. Math is the most enjoyable lesson of the day, basically because Mr Rahmat is funny, and of course never forgetting that incessant joker (OBVIOUSLY NAIM) who sits on my right. Anyway. Cut the crap.

'Hey naim, look at all the happy faces!' -both glance round and burst out laughing- There we have Alexandrew, staring into nothing. Alan, sprawled across the table, with his eyes almost closing. Nadia, with her eyes already closed. Emily and Bernard, very happily ji-gou-pa-ing right under Mr Rahmat's nose. Terence, grinning to himself like... well, yeah, shall not elaborate. Koong Jye, playing with his papers on his ever-messy table. Yenny, actually READING A STORYBOOK BEHIND HER TEXTBOOK. Now, that's something =P And lastly, dear Cexi, fiddling with his hair. Naim actually tricked him by putting the scissors right above him and snipping it feverishly. To think Cexi checked the floor and chair for strands of hair -_-

So there you have the only two idiots (and the occasional one diagonally in front of me and directly in front of naim aka charmione) who are the only ones who seem, SEEM to be paying enough attention while Mr Rahmat rambles on. Actually he really is a good teacher, (no sarcasm there) just that somehow... don't ask why or how... his voice is just so... soothing... which could be good and bad sometimes. Honestly, I usually pay attention. Unless Naim is too funny. Charmione too. Fancy putting a broken pencil together, and Charmione flexing her toufus, Naim tapping the pencil on her arm and it 'breaking'. Convincing indeed.

If you're actually still reading, wow.

And after school I just couldn't seem to stop laughing. It was like, what, 1500 degrees Celcius or something, and Terence was eating this steaming prawn mee!? Gosh. Emily and I felt hot enough watching him. Well, the thing is, when he stood up, he looked like he'd just finished his 2.4. His arms were all wet, his shirt soaked right through and even his legs reflected the light... Funny fella. Wonder how he stands it. The Human Torch. WHOA.

I think I've said enough crap for now haven't I. Shall crap more soon enough =)

Until then... err... err... err... I'll miss you =P

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:20:00 pm

All right, so here I am, blogging again. Inspired perhaps? Yeah. Haha. Lets see, this didn't take as long as the first one did, and it sure looks less... ahem. Anyway. I've got SO MUCH to talk about, and you know me, I just can't stop. UNLESS I'm tired (for example now). Lol. I'll update you guys on my holiday last year soon enough -_- Hey, it really was great! You won't believe what I saw, a house you'd think only existed in movies? Yeah, I stayed in one.

And a lot's been going on in this premature life of mine. Which is pretty cool =) You'll see what happens, in time to come. Until then...

Take care, and God bless =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:20:00 pm