Sunday, August 14, 2005 :)
And it hurts. A lot. Especially when you hold that special someone so close to you.
It just hit me. And I really never expected it to be so hard. I mean, I'm just letting go for a lil bit, but it seems so difficult. I want to do it, but it's not easy. 'The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak'? Now that you're finally focusing, I don't wanna be the one to hold you back. I don't wanna be the one to blame if you fail. So I'm letting go. And it hurts, really, I don't know why. Not like it's some major thing or anything, but it's just.. weird. I guess it's good. I think I've finally found something true, someone true. For the first time. And I just wanna let you know I'll always be right here; walking right next to you. If you ever feel you're gonna fall, you've got a friend to hold on to. =)
And then there's Tessa, who's just left for the States. I guess it doesn't seem like a big thing, but I believe you've touched all of us. All these years you've just been working behind the scenes in the Youth Ministry, planning activities, mentoring, surrendering your laptop into our hands... but really. To be gone more than a year, I really think I'm gonna miss you. For all the love and care you've shown to us, and for all the knowledge you've imparted, I'm gonna miss you. Study hard, and come back smarter <-- quoted Sam Soon.
And then again there's Emily, who'll be leaving at the end of the year. Now that's someone I'm really gonna miss. Dearie, I know you're not reading this, but I just wanna thank you for everything. You really are a great buddy; and so many times I've taken you for granted. So, so many times. My wrong. We've had so many great times together, and I really don't know how I'm gonna take it when you go. I'll probably be crying hysterically at the airport or something. It's gonna hurt. And I won't have your shoulder to cry on anymore. I don't know, everytime I'm down and out, you're always there. Somehow. And it's always comforting to know that you care, and it's always your shoulder I cry on. Always. I'm gonna miss that shoulder. A LOT. But I guess it isn't the end of the world, is it? GO GET MSN MESSENGER X)
Lastly, our dear Alexandrew. Touched e1 in many ways (so many that I really don't know where to start) Though you're not exactly very close to me, I believe I will miss you. After all, you are a friend, and you have stepped into my life and made a difference. Even the slightest one. Thanks for always being so encouraging and sarcastic (my fellow sarcastic buddy). Thanks for all the laughter you've brought to e1, with you teasing Miss Faten and stuff like that. And jumping to pull the screen down, intentionally revealing whatever weird-coloured boxers you have under there. Please don't do that in Australia. They might not like black =P Just kidding. I only say it cos I know someone as thick-skinned as you can take it. But anyhow, take care and bend it like Alex man =)
I guess friends really play a huge part in my life. Wait, I KNOW friends play a huge part in my life. Every single friend, be it a hi-bye friend, or one I can really relate to, thank you for being there. In any way. I guess I'll never really know/treasure you enough, until the day I see you walk out of my life. Someone please, wake me up.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:31:00 pm
