Wednesday, September 28, 2005 :)
In these eyes
More than words
More than anything that I've spoken
As the skies
Turn to gray
My heart's just about to crack open
So the story goes
There's something you should know
Before I walk away and I blow the ending
I never wanna be without you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
There's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no, there I go
No control
And I'm falling
So now you know
Feel so light
Craving oxygen
All these truths left me empty
Will you run
Can you handle it
Cause I need you to tell me
Maybe this seems bold
But I'm hoping you willl stay for a happy ending
I never wanna be without you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
There's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no, there I go
No control
And I'm falling
So now you know
No I won't look back
When I tell you what I think about you
No I won't look back
When I tell you what I think about you
So the story goes
Yeah, you already know
So don't be a fool and go spoil the ending
I never wanna be without you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
There's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no, there I go
No control
And I'm falling
So now you know.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:38:00 pm
Today's been pretty good, I guess? Yeah. Yesterday too, I guess? Yeah.
I only don't like those very looong periods of time between not doing anything or not thinking straight when thoughts creep in. Especially during tests. Finish the paper way before the stop time and sit there thinking. Tsk tsk. At least it doesn't hurt that much anymore =) That's good, right? Yes, Marianne, it is. Yeah, thanks.
So many questions which need answers but aren't answered. So many words that need to be said but aren't said. So many feelings that need to be poured out but are kept in. I just need to know how you feel.
Thank goodness for people like Daryl who were there. Desiree, Irish, Jing Ming, Priscilla, thanks a lot =)) And Daryl, I guess you know what everyone doesn't. Thanks for listening and being so sympathetic =)
So anyway. Studied like some retarded kia yesterday. Saturated brain.
I DO NOT LIKE CHINESE. Period.
Quite frustrating doing it la. But the test was quite ok, I guess? Yeah. Oral's kinda doomed anyway. Yet I won't drop it if I'm given a chance to. Argh. See? Things like that can get pretty irritating sometimes, right? Right? Agree? Yes Ma'am.
Class was funny, as usual. WE WROTE A COMPO. Man, second class essay this year. Sad case right? Especially since that's what we score for, NOT compre/summary!? Yeah. Wrote a sad one; with emotion. Felt myself almost tearing when Naim HAD to break my train of thought and make me laugh. Purposely right? So that I won't beat you by one mark again RIGHT? Diaooo. Actually the only times I find him really annoying is when I'm trying to concentrate. Lmao.
Some kias were a bit too much during Geog though. Tsk tsk. Everyone's climbing over her. -shakes head- Started singing Happy Birthday to Dawn can!? -faints- No, I didn't join in, thank you very much. Lol.
So lets see.. I've been here for an hour (claiming to do my newsletter which I actually finished ages ago) when I really should be. Shucks. Got my colour schemes to finish up.
Shucks, I've really gotta start chiong-studying. Shucks. So little time left. So much to do.
And Mr Njoo is like some joker. (In a good way la.) Stopped at my table during the Science test. So pai sei kia can. And it happened to be the page I didn't know how to do. He was making weird sounds like 'Hmmm!?!?!' And whatever not. Talked to me a lil. Not that I really minded since I was kinda bored anyway.
Oh, and I smelt morning Punggol in afternoon Pasir Ris. How weird is THAT!?!
Oh well. Wind. Lol. Signing off now. -signs off-
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:37:00 pm
Monday, September 26, 2005 :)
I'm letting go.
For now I just need to cry my guts out so I won't have to anymore.
Ow. Pain. Quite pain.
I know what I need to do now. No wait, I don't. I really don't know where I'll go from here. I'll just leave it in His hands. He knows best.
Trying to rely on Him now. I really am, but my human nature just seems to be pulling me back. I want Him to help, yet I want to rely on myself. Isn't that contradicting? ARGH. I HATE times like that.
And Chinese is just KILLING me. KILLING. It seriously is super irritating.
I hate this. Why now? No wait, I'm not supposed to ask 'why?' right? Nah.
I'll look to the future :) All the best to you.
Playing: Hilary Duff - Now You Know. Shucks, this song is too meaningful.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!5:42:00 pm
Sunday, September 25, 2005 :)
When I'm alone the world is such a different place
Sometimes it's hard to keep the smile upon my face
It seems like I try so hard and still I let You down
It's taken so long but now there's one thing that I've found
When everything starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me
Just when I think that I have got it figured out
You open my eyes and let me see that there's no doubt
That You've got it all within the power of Your hand
It seems like the more I know the less I understand
When everything starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me
When all my strength has turned to fear
When I wonder if You're near
When I don't know how to break free
You're always there to rescue me
I wonder if I'll make it through this darkest night
I need to know Your strength in me's gonna win this fight
I'm reaching out won't You take my hand show me to the light
I know You're by my side
Just when I think that I have got it figured out
You open my eyes and let me see that there's no doubt
That You've got it all within the power of Your hand
It seems like the more I know the less I understand
When everything starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me
When all my strength has turned to fear
When I wonder if You're near
When I don't know how to break free
You're always there to rescue me
I guess now it's my turn to ask Him to calm the storm in me.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:24:00 pm
Is this what Edwina said was coming?
The ultimate test of forgiveness?
Maybe it is.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:18:00 pm
Wednesday, September 21, 2005 :)
HAHA. SINCE I'M HAPPY, I'LL TYPE IN CAPS. RIGHT MARIANNE, THAT'S SO IDIOTIC. YA I KNOW, BUT I'M HAPPY SO I'LL BE IDIOTIC. RIGHHTTT... (SEEMS WEIRD NOT HAVING TO PRESS THE 'SHIFT' KEY...)
Ok la. I'll be normal =P
I PASSED MY PIANO EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -include a ton of smiley faces here- woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! With a merit, can? =D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D
Gosh.............. do I sound like Benjamin Goh or what????????????? (tons of punctuation marks la) Lol.
Decided to check the mail just to see if MINE came in. Suspense killing me, you know? So blah blah blah. 120. -SHOCK- wanted to cry can. SO happy. I really thought I'd fail. Gosh.
Lalala. So I'm happy. Thank God, really. Thank God =)
School was great again. Funny kia. Haha. Mmm... took shots with our umbrellas; whole Sec 2 express. All the awesome umbrellas displayed in the parade square can. Mine was somewhere at the front with Emily's, so kinda stood there. Quite a few people said it was nice =P didn't really think so but, yeah, thanks. Heh.
Oh and Alex, thanks for the compliment =P and yes, I know -ahem-. Everyone knows la? Haha. I can't help it, can I? Lmao.
Oh. Actually have something REALLY funny to blog about but I won't. Need to do art.
Just realised I love art so much more this year. I mean, compare it to Sec 1? Every week thumbnails/colour schemes and stuff. Not so 'pointful'. This year's is like, PROJECTS CAN. Wooooo. Art mania. Shoe-painting mania XP
Been realising a lot of things; weird things. Like, I think so much more in the bathroom. Like, it's my time of reflection/weird thoughts or something. Quite funny/amusing. Shall tell you more next time, blog -_- Right. Haha.
Woo. Gotta go design some shoes now =P take care guys.
And stay happy =))
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:12:00 pm
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 :)
Woo hoo. I'm a happy girl =) (no, not because i'm not hungry, thank you very much)
Not too sure why really, but I guess I've been learning a lot lately. Not too sure why really, but things have been changing. Some for the worse, some for the better. Which is good and bad, right? Right.
Suddenly becoming so much more focused on my work - please note frequency of posts. Like, really. I could sit in front of the computer for like, hours, without even signing in to MSN? Yes, phoa kia.
And God's really been working. Honestly. Prayer works miracles. It seems like He just knows everything. Everything. Which is what I find to be really comforting; in front of Him I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not. I don't have to live up to expectations. I don't have to face the temptation of lying, of denying. Believe me, it's a great feeling to know He knows. Everything.
I'm really, really glad that God answered our prayers. Alex's back in school =) of his own accord. And he seems better now. A lot better. It's really good to have him back.
Seems I'm mixing more with Desiree kia nowadays. (No, not cos you said i'm CUTE) -cough- fun kia to be with. You know, it's amazing what some silly blog could do to "improve relationships". From silly tags to silly MSN convos to silly REAL LIFE convos. Lmao.
Making more good friends now. Which is good, right? Nice to have people to talk to =))
So anyway. Gotta go orh orh koonie kia. Need to stay awake in class (with the help of occasional horlicks malties) and no, I'm not addicted.
Stop fretting!
Oh, and Des kia? CONGRATS. Prelims finally over kia. -sigh kia- Forever online kia right kia. Haha.
Oh, and I'm reading the Koran. For some reasons la. XP but I seem to be more on reading it than my Bible!?!! Ok, that's not right. But don't worry, good reasons I have. Heh heh.
Take care everyone =D God loves you!
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:54:00 pm
Saturday, September 17, 2005 :)
Right, so this is part of an email I just received from Angeline. It's a chain letter, but I've deleted it all the same. Well somehow, for once, it actually does have meaning in it, and it actually does make sense.
Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
There are at least 2 people in this world who would die for you.
You mean the world to someone.
Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look again.
Always remember the compliments you receive. Forget the rude remarks.
True. Well obviously I didn't include the "Pass this on to ___ people if not you will have bad luck for the rest of your life" crap. To think I really believe that in primary school and forwarded every single chain letter. What a joke. I laugh.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:14:00 pm
So much to say - so little time.
But for the time that I DO have, I'll say what I can. Friday was a great day. =) Like, the whole day. Ok, maybe not the part when I couldn't keep awake for the introduction of Thessalonians. But other than that, I learnt a lot. Many things happened. I think if I don't say it now, I never will.
Ok, apart from the usual class jokes which happened to be exceptionally hilarious, mmm, we went back to our old seating arrangement. Hotter yes, but there's some funny company over there.
Had interclass capnet ball, which they really might as well call 'netball' since they're using, STRICTLY, netball rules. Zzz... anyway, it was good. Lessons learnt from there too. Yes, even there. But it was before that that was great la.
Well Calista and I were sitting there, waiting, talking about God, as usual. It's really encouraging to see people like her so fired up for God. 'The thing about being a Christian is that you NEVER GET BORED LOR!' Yes girl I totally agree. Had a good talk about God. Kept asking her to speak in tongues (since I thought it was really cool to hear her speak like that). So asked Charmaine to listen. Then Emily, who went "what's that" -falls off floor to I don't know where- Told her to read Corinthians. Lol.
But anyway. We talked for a lil bout God before talking about something else. Then Charmaine asked to pray, since we were talking about God. So yeah, how could we turn THAT down? So there we were, in the foyer, hand in hand, praying. Prayed for a few things, Sec 4s having prelims, capnetball, final term, good weather... then I thought there was one more thing to pray for: Emily. (and they added Alex, so yeah)
But just before I was gonna pray, I knew I'd break down. Somehow praying out loud about things that are very personal to me just bring about tears. So anyway I just prayed with hot tears drippin down my cheeks . Very sad about some things; some things only God can handle. So yeah, just commit it all to Him. Prayer of more works better, right? No need to hide my emotions anyway. Opened my eyes to see Charmaine, Eileen and Emily crying too. Well, we didn't cry hysterically la can. Duh.
But really, even from that, a lot can be learnt la. Not the crying part, but the praying part. Even in all this turmoil, even in all these hopeless situations, it's nice to know hope can still be found. Faith can still be found. Love can still be found. And it's very encouraging. Gives me hope to press on.
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.
Psalm 56:3
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:36:00 pm
Wednesday, September 14, 2005 :)
HEY GUYS. So sorry, I haven't really blogged for what, 5 days?!?! -insert exaggerated gasp here- Been really busy, haven't PROPERLY come online for quite a while... -gasps at self- (Well actually the real reason's cos I want you to miss me... right?)
But anyway, life's been weird. 'You're really weird!' right... Been having weird dreams. Occasionally, but they're so weird they actually stay in my head!? Yeah. Is God speaking to me? 2/3 of my weird dreams were about failure: and both times it was a fail of 47/100. See? So significant I even can remember the score. Aiee.
Shucks, I'm falling back. Slacking too much liao. -pulls up socks- Marianne's comin' back! (Now wait, how many times have I said that already... -mumbles-) Argh. Seems like so many things are hitting me now. Darts coming in all directions to knock me down. To make me fall. ARGH. It's fear. My fear. My fear of failing, of not living up to expectations. Not that there are THAT many; but enough to kill. Ok fine, not kill, but get me worried.
I dreamt I failed my piano exam. I think it'll turn into reality. Seriously. And I don't know how I'll take it. ARGH. Talking to competitive people seriously kills. No good comes out of it; not much. ARGH. I can't take it. God help me.
And Alex- I really don't know what's happening to him. Seriously. Everyone's trying to help, but he's not letting us. And honestly, VERY honestly, it's a waste. For a prodigy like that, he's wasting his life away. Come on dude, BE A MAN. DO THE RIGHT THING. I know you've got it in you, somewhere down there. But it's just buried. Dig it out.
ARGH. Idiotic. Is this what the devil's doing to me? No, I won't let you win, you bloody idiot. Literally bloody. -prays- Ok. I'm fine now. =P Man, I love God.
So lets talk about more HAPPY/GAY things, shall we? =P More like I blabber, you sleep. -laughs at own joke- Oh marianne you're so funny. Haha I know! Thanks! (and I bet you're going "errrrrr!!!!!" -insert worried look here-)
Haha. School rocks la. I love 2e1. Life is full of ups and downs, ain't it? I love the laughter we have in class; thanks to idiotic jokers (ya la we all know who) Lets see.. we all couldn't stop laughing that day. Miss Faten included. What were we doing ah? Something la. So she was just walking around. Stopped at Naim's desk.
Miss Faten: Is this a joke!?! -amused face-
Naim: Heh.
Miss Faten: -takes up 'Sweet Valley Twins book'- I thought only primary school girls read this!?
Naim: Heh. But it helped me get first for English!!! -hopeful grin-
Lmao. Idiotic. Then during history. Wa kao cannot tahan. Humanities IT Room. (Due to the fear or Terence breaking a chair when he got on; or due to his 'sufficient intelligent' in using a dustpen/broom to pull the stringless screen down,) Mr Tay called on Naim. Who, as usual, made a fool of himself. Can't believe I'm laughing typing this now. Wahaha. Pictures stay etched in my head =P Well the screen obviously was too high. But he still jumped like an idiot. Oh man I cannot tahan. Jump and jump and jump -include retarded Naim's anxious/hapless/worried/about to cry tones here- Cannot tahan. Aimless jumping idiot. LMAO.
Mr Tay was funny. Was interchanging OHP and Whiteboard. You know what kinda mess that creates? =P A funny one. Lol. Didn't know whether to laugh or not. You know, might be seen as being rude kia right. But couldn't hold it in all the same so... =P LMAO AGAIN.
Mr Tay: Ok, so this is how you answer blah blah blah -points at transparency flashed on screen- -AIYA IN OTHER WORDS HE'S USING THE OHP LA-
Mr Tay: Now look at this blah blah blah -releases screen to show white board-
Mr Tay: blah blah -pulls screen down again-
(this part still ok. THEN)
Mr Tay: -releases screen to show white board-
Class: -tries to control laughter-
Mr Tay: -smile-
Lol. Think he realised why we were giggling. Lol. It's weird you know, trying to not look like you're laughing when you ARE laughing? Man, constipated look. LMAO.
Oh yeah, did our skit today. Chapters 19-21 can! To Kill A Mocking Bird. Seriously, it's a great book. Some parts really got me hooked. Haha. Anyway, skit didn't turn out THAT badly after all =P In fact the Maine and I scene seemed to amuse our audience. Ms Liong liked it! WOO!! To think I considered taking that part out XD It was a flashback la. And it was err.... a 'rape' scene. So I doubled up as Tom Robinson. Not very right to have a GUY acting as THAT Tom Robinson, would it? Lol. Got 29/40 at first, but for good behaviour she added 3 marks, so 32/40!! -cheers- that makes 80. WOO!! Nice.
And Daryl Bong really did a great job. Memorised 6 paragraphs!? WHOOA. GREAT JOB DUDE =D and to the rest of the team too. WOO! ^21!! Khye An was the 'real' Tom Robinson; whom Ms Liong said sounded Bangladeshy -tries to control laughter- Hey, at least he sounded like something! LMAO.
At the rate I'm LingMAO, I don't think I'm gonna have one left -_- LMAO.
So... I think I've said enough. Oh wait, not yet =P
Oh but then again, I'll save it for next time =D Heh. Take care guys =)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your days, sing His praise, and He will carry you through. (Sixpence None The Richer sang this =))
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:13:00 pm
Friday, September 09, 2005 :)
Ok, I don't even know what my title means -_-
Seriously, this is the very very first time I haven't enjoyed my holiday. I haven't played hard, nor have I studied hard. Argh. You know how irritating that is?
I blame Superman. Go and put these thoughts of studying into my head when I planned to play the whole holiday away. See la, now make me feel bad only. -shakes head and sighs-
Whiex euux du dish tu meex??
Wurgh. I can't believe I actually read a testimonial FULL of that kinda talk. Seriously, if it was written in comprehensible english, it'd taken up half the space. Funny.
So I guess maybe going to school IS better than sleep. wake up. eat. computer. eat. grow fat. tv. eat. sleep. (repeat cycle for 7 days)
Oh well. I guess reading boring crap bores you right? Right. Cos boring crap is boring. So of course since boring crap is boring, people will feel bored reading boring crap since it's boring. I can't imagine many actually bothering to read this boring crap, well, especially THIS part of the boring crap and actually wasting much-needed brain juices trying to digest such boring crap which seriously is boring. Hey, actually it isn't so boring talking about boring stuff like boring crap. I don't think anyone's really reading my boring crap which I'm writing out of pure boredom to bore others so...
Good Night. =)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:38:00 pm
Hey, why do I hear Harry Potter music in the background!?!?! -scrambles outside-
Oh anyway.
Yes, I believe the funniest woman on the planet, unfortunately unconsciously, is my mother. Yes, surprise surprise. She doesn't mean to be, but dang, she is. Super funny.
Because why? I also donno.
But she just is. See? Such wonderful God-given abilities should be treasured dearly =P
She got my brother and I rolling (well almost) on the carpark floor just now. CARpark floor. Well, pretty obvious why. CARpark. CAR-PARK. So what was she trying to do? You say leh?
You see, sometimes my dad'll do these really stupid things in our somewhat deserted carpark. (well, not all cars suddenly zoom in and park at the same time, right?) Like he'll suddenly, but intentionally, slow down to 15km/h. Then slow down even more to go up the slope. Then while going up, he'll turn the steering wheel like. Super exaggerated. Cannot tahan. Can laugh all the way up cans. Then when parking the car, keep going in and out. Drive. Reverse. Drive. Open door and check. Park. Reverse. Turn wheel. Drive. Open door and check. Reverse. Drive. Park. Ok.
Phoa, by then we're all like, dead. No oxygen to breathe kia right.
So all his imitations, supposedly how my mum drives.
Since what happened today was the real thing, guess what happened to my brother and I?
WE DIED.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:21:00 pm
Thursday, September 08, 2005 :)
See lah, another wasted day. Tsk. (I think I sound like Desireems here. 'oh noo!' <-- ok, sound more like desireems HERE)
Got up way too early for my standards. Woke up late, actually. So had to rush. Tsk. Anyway, it was raining so my mum gave me a lift to the station. (somehow even that was terror -_-")
Anyway. Made my way to Newton. Sian. Got there early. Leonard and Ze Min were even earlier can. Haha. I think I was some kinda lamp post/light bulb, whichever you may choose. Zzz... That's so totally wrong.
Kept falling asleep at first. Whoops kia =X can't escape fatigue, can I? heh. Kept getting nudged by Leonard. Tsk.
Realised I've put on A LOT of weight. Like, seriously la. (But deer kia, not as much as "i'm a very appealing person" -blank stare-) AND I KNOW WHY. grrr... but thou shalt not disclose la... don't be such a kaypo =P
Anyway, I MUST make you jealous. REEEEWWWINNNDDD!!
Yesterday night, we went to Pete's Place. I told you we were having a special dinner, right? Belated birthday for me, advance birthday for my Gan Ma. (dang, lucky me gets to have so many dinners) but anyway, it was great. Great. So good I almost puked when I finished.
In a good way, duh. The food was sooooo good can. Free flow bread. -eyes widen- Lets see, 4 main courses between the 5 of us. Sufficient. Overly-sufficient, if I should say so myself. We had a Large Pizza, Lasagne, Penne Carbonara, and this Seafood Rice thingy. They had really really weird names for the food.. ok la, not weird. Just EXTREMELY long. Much longer than the usual 'Pasta Marinara' in Pastamania; this one was in French, and was like 10 words long. Yeah. -question marked face-
So anyway, very full(y), we ordered dessert. Yes, we were brave. CHOCOLATE FONDUE. (this is mentioned to make, especially, people like wey drool all over the keyboard and cause it to explode in their faces) nah, just kidding about that, very obviously. You're lame man, Marianne. Yesyes I know.
Well, SOMEHOW I found space to stuff more food in. Turgid stomach walls -_- Zzz.. But it was great la. Since we had extra chocolate, my bro took a breadstick and dipped it in. Haha. Unfortunately I was too full. Everything would come out anytime (but due to my supreme skill I could tahan)
Tsk. Fatty. Gotta go exercise liao. Tmr free day right? OH YEAH. CAN GO CYCLING WITH MY BRO!!! -cheers- Phang lao shi apologised for not being able to teach me tomorrow morning. Oh lao shi, don't apologise =P
Oh yeah. Back to today. See? I got carried away. Again. -shakes head and lets out long, excruciating sigh- Actually the course was quite all right....................... GEOGRAPHY REMEDIAL cum ORAL PRESENTATION SKILLS. Gosh. Teach us some things we DON'T know, aiee?
We ate. A lot. Like pigs sia.
10.15 - tea break.
12.30 - lunch.
3.15 - tea break.
Wow kia.
There was this really funny guy in the RED group, aka my group la. A few schools combine and form a group, you see. So anyway, since we couldn't think of a cheer, we came up with a skit instead. About public health. That guy was real funny la. Made stupid sound effects and comments and stuff.
Then came back, they asked...
Environmentalist: Ok, who wants to go first??
Funny Guy: YELLOW!!!!!!! YELLOW!!!!!!!!!! -shouts lungs out- YELLOW!!!!!!!!!
Environmentalist: Wow, I hear a lot of yellow! Ok, YELLOW goes first!!!
Lameness. Then he did that to the orange group. So after that we kena sabo-ed by them. But it was all in good fun, aiee? =P
Sian. That's about it. Wanted to drop by CGH to visit my Grandma on the way back, but there were slight disturbances in my thoughts which prevented me from doing so. Argh. Against my better judgement. Tsk. Deliberated hopping on the next train but... Naw...
Some freak's been messaging me. Wurgh. No fun. But anyway.
-hears tense, crescendo-ing, LOST music in background- I've gotta go catch it. Haven't done so in a long time. Catch Lost. Sounds... interesting =X
So anyway, I hope to upload a few pics of my wonderful fondue soon. =D heh heh. CRAVE!!
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:37:00 pm
Wednesday, September 07, 2005 :)
My egg, that is. Wurgh. I can't even cook an egg.
Currently eating my cup noodles. (yes, that i can cook) Mum, you've gotta teach me how to cook an egg (again) since I haven't done so in like. Years, really. -embarrassed- To think I used to be a major chef in Primary 5. Cooked lunch for myself every single day. =)
And my dear brother is still hogging my room. Thus, I'm doing my work here. -sigh-
Pity me, not. I love cold water. -gulp-
Dinner tonight. Yay. (I mean, SPECIAL dinner tonight. obviously dinner's every night right -_-) diaoooo.
ok then. gotta eat =P -cheers- au revoir!
On Air: Sing (Your Love) awesome song.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!1:41:00 pm
Tuesday, September 06, 2005 :)
Ah, finally, something I feel like blogging about. I guess when you first start off you're like, hyper enthu (aka me) or something, then slowly... you start to lose it. Hmmm...
Anyway. Today I learnt a lot. Basically cleared up my messed up room, tried to study Biology... TRIED. Never really managed to get anything in, except a bit about protoplasms... but I shall not bore you with that. Did my Math homework.. yes, I only have one question left =P But that's bad, cos IRONICALLY, it's the most enjoyable thing to do at this point of time (which is productive enough). -sigh-
Visited my Grandma in the hospital. She had a heart attack yesterday morning, I think. Yeah. But today she seemed to the usual 'mama'. Which is a good thing.
Think I'm kinda wasting this holiday away... -mutters- So anyway.
10 things I learnt today (Most from Changi General Hospital)
1. Kung Pow Madness is CONTAGIOUS
Well you see, it goes like this. I lend the VCD to a friend, who's supposed to lend it to a friend. However, the friend I lent it to watches it, and gets many many kicks out of it. So for pretty long after that, all we're talking about is the rubbish from Kung Pow. Man, I've watched it 4 times and I'm still laughing. Kimmy, come over some time and lets relieve ourselves =P
2. People in hospitals can't be bothered to turn their phones to SILENT
Okay, for one, phones aren't even supposed to be on, especially not in ICU wards, but I was just in a normal one, so yeah. There were these occasional funny tunes in the ward I was in, but the owner usually hurriedly shut it off. So I guess that was... fine. But MAN ALIVE. This kinda middle-aged woman came in. And her idiotic/very very obiang tune went on and on and on. And on. Gosh, Dad and I couldn't stop laughing cans. Rubbishness prevails kia.
3. It's not easy to PEE in PAMPERS
Yeah, HOHO. Well you see, this old woman next to my Grandma (actually her daughter was talking to us. Her daughter = same age as my mum, yeah, you geddit king right.) She was using pampers. And like, apparently she took a month to 'adapt to her new environment'. Like, okkayy. I guess old habits die hard huh? Can't imagine me just peeing right now just cos I'm wearing pampers. -screams-
4. Hospital food is NICE
Yes, the hungry mania coped her Grandma's remnants. nono wait, that's wrong. Grandma's FOOD'S remnants. She left some porridge. Like, 0.5cm of a bowl? Those small ones. Tsk tsk. Felt sad for her; she's missed a lot of meals since she got admitted, so she's been hungry. My older cousin kept teasing her about food... tsk tsk. Funny kia. Anyway, the food was NICE. (My dinner after that was no match, surprisingly.)
5. My Mother is a GREAT WOMAN
And my Grandma agrees. Honestly, sometimes my mum is just so.. helpfully kpo. But that's good right, I mean, take initiative. We were sitting with my grandma when my mum noticed this other old woman like, falling off the bed or something. Went there to help her. (of course I assisted) Made sure she was comfortable and whatever not. Even my grandma was looking at her, smiling. "Your mother is very good, very helpful" -satisfied face- I guess what really lets old people like that die happy is knowing that they've brought up their kids well. =) Think my parents will die happy XP hor? haha.
6. I have the EXACT same HANDS as my mother, who has the EXACT same HANDS as her mother
Ok, that sure took long enough... say, 8 years? (don't count the first 6, I wasn't smart enough) terror sia. I mean, I was just watching, observing; when I realised the uncanny resemblance. Amazing genes/jeans.
7. Doctors have SPECIAL DISINFECTANT SOAPS
So, bored, I went to the sink to wash my hands (in preparation for my grandma's dinner...) Saw this soap thingy with a long long press-down button.. some extention la. So like, oh! interesting... -squirts once- wow, it's red! <-- ok this sounds stupid. -rubs hands- -reads instructions on bottle- "Rub for one minute" fwat!?! "Pay attention to nails" oooh, okayy... "Rinse thoroughly'' hmmm... -washes hands like siao- ahhh, done. how refreshing. Then I glance up... "FOR DOCTORS ONLY" ahhhh! whoops! -glances around- heh.. heh..
8. My guy-cousin looks very HANDSOME
Sorry girls, he's an adult. Haha. But just noticed it, he looks really good. His sister (the one who poked fun at my grandma for eating too much) looks gorgeous too. Lalala.
9. Sometimes nurses aren't very helpful
Hmmm, I said, SOMETIMES. Most are real cordial, but some... -shakes head- My poor grandma was asking for water the whole day. Never got it. Tsk tsk. The old lady next to her, too. Tsk tsk. But most of them are nice la. Maybe they've had bad days? Must understand... -agrees with self-
10. Sometimes being in a worse-than-usual state is GOOD for you
Like my Grandma; she's getting a lot of TLC now. And I think it's good, sometimes people feel neglected or something, but things like that. They make others care more, treasure you more, and I guess you just feel loved again. Sometimes things like that; they're just blessings in disguise. =)
Take a look at the ordinary, don't need to look to paradise. You could be next to an angel in disguise.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:45:00 pm
Monday, September 05, 2005 :)
Maine's hand. Tsk. She's so not subtle. Thinking of me too much, eh? That doesn't give you the liberty to write my name all over your fingers, girl. =P
Just realised the Kia looks fierce =P Pen-eaters/suckers. Hello, not so bad ok. She asked me to put the pen in her mouth in my nostrils!? HELLO. Couldn't stop laughing queen cans. XD
Extracted from 2e1's awesome Class photo. I just love this =P Don't you?
AHHH! This could be what being a PASTA-MANIA does to you. Yum! -_- Haha. Sick Khye An. Lol.
See? Free advertisement for Uniball Signo pens. That's mine by the way. My favourite pen =P How... nice.
Awww! Sweeeeet =P Or so we think... what say you? Haha.
Hey, what'dya know! William's turnin red-indian! =D -cheers-
Haha. Where did my eyes go -_- Charmione looks sooo mature. Amazing! =P
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Mmm... GRAPHS! Fwat?.. Come again? -confusion kia-
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!1:48:00 pm
Sunday, September 04, 2005 :)
Saying 'I love you'
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I don't want you
Not to say but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words
To show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying 'I love you'
It's more than words
It's more than what you say
It's the things you do
Oh yeah
It's more than words
It's more than what you say
It's the things you do
Oh yeah
Now that I've tried to talk to you
And make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands
And touch me
Hold me close
Don't ever let me go
More than words
Is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words
To show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying 'I love you'
More than words
I love this song =)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:14:00 pm
Finally, music again. I know you've been dying not hearing anything, right? RIGHT? =P
Lyrics shall come soon enough.. hehe. The song's only temporary anyway, got nicer ones to shove in your face =D that sounds wrong, sorry, right? ahhh. saying 'right' a lot today, right? X)
Finally, a chance to catch up with my much-needed beauty sleep... righhtt. And with my many many many lost 'Lost' episodes. Yes, I've missed everything since the one when the Korean woman could speak in English. WHOOAA. How many liao, 10? -bites lips- oh well. I have all the time in the world. =D
Lazy to write now, got LOTS of writing to do for literature... which I must do now so yeah. Chill guys! =) Enjoy the music.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:38:00 pm
Saturday, September 03, 2005 :)
Cos here I have my dearest Desireems, bugging me to blog so she'll have something to do.. haha.. and what do you mean by that, president of IMH? I thought you were my CEO, self-promotion huh? Wahaha. Still laughing at the lameness of your retarded tag =P Aw man, I think i got my retardednosity from YOU. (unexpectedly) =P hahahahaha. Can't stop laughing.
Anyway, to the rest of my loyal readers, so so much's been happening. Great week - it's passed way too slowly. Funny things happening.
REEEWIINNNDD!! -insert tape rolling sound here-
Went to watch RED EYE on Thursday. Supposed to be a 'birthday dinner' <--- yes, dragged for very long, thanks to me... so we caught a movie + dinner. To think Mr Foo actually went at 11+ to buy tickets. Dood, I was just kidding about that =P but anyway, man alive, was it a good show! Trailer seriously was very misleading. I thought it'd be some satanic stuff, but nah, it was kinda down-to-earth? I guess. Super short movie though. Like, 1 h 20 min? But it still was great =)
Actually, I think movies nowadays are getting less... good? I mean, they're not bad, but somehow I used to come out of cinemas with the 'WHOA THAT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME' feeling. Now, it's just 'whoa that was good'. So is it just me, or is it the film-makers? I WONDER...
So anyway, we went down to the ground floor since we didn't know what to do. Man alive, these people can just stand there for ages deciding what to do!? Usually the Lawful Robbers would just well, lawfully rob, or something. But we (Miss Loke, Mr Foo, Mr Tiang, and Miss Hui <-- the weird-but-very-cool-and-original-surnamed-people) stood there for like, 7 minutes deciding what to do. Decided to head to Century Square.
Whoa, major breakthru. Got there and stood again -_- funny.
So since we couldn't decide on anything, we decided (eh? contradictory...) to just sit in Billy Bombers and kill time. We were very successful, I must say. Sat there for like 3 and a half hours. -wipes large sweat droplet- Crapped so much man. Real funny.
To think Mr Tiang/Foo could tease Miss Loke for like, forever. And we all thought she knew we were teasing her, until we realised she didn't -_- -KABOING- -insert picture of people falling off chairs here- That was real funny.
Anyway, had a great time. Got home at like 10.20 = whoops kia. Ok la, next day was Friday, so yeah.
Friday the 2nd. -gongs/cymbals- RIGHT.
OH YEAH. almost forgot what Charmione and I did in class can? =P
Listenin to music during LP.. highly funny.
Deer kia: Why is it ah, people use the small small mp3 can get caught then we use this big portable radio never kena? -sheepish smile-
I burst out laughing can. STUPIDITY PREVAILS. wahahahaahahaha. Listening (using earphones of course) and contorting my body to some weird angle so as to hide my face from the teacher. Wurgh. =P funny. Kept wanting to listen to 'Have You Ever' by S Club 7. How old man. Surprised I could still remember the lyrics. -cheers-
Anyway. Geog. Mdm Lee. So, since she had a digital camera.. guess what we did? XP HOMEWORK LA!!!
I mean, since Geography is such an interesting subject and lessons are totally enjoyable, right? -blank stare- (whoops, learnt sarcasm's wrong at CBSI. wurgh. hello, I'm majorly sarcastic, cans? help me God)
Well, we started taking rubbish shots. =P very fun, I must say. 2 retards smiling at Maine's geography textbook. Gosh, that must've looked so... wrong. But dang, it was funny. Were thinking up stupid poses when...
Deer kia: -takes drawing pen and offers it to me- EHH! You.... put in your nostrils la! Then I also put!
ME kia: WHAT THE!?!?! -naturally contorted face- HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please la gurl, you can go shove em up your nostrils for all i care, count ME out =P
Funny. Well, since I'm so lazy to put the pics up here, you can see some at HER blog.
Went for tuition in the afternoon. Very funny king cans... =P
Somehow we started discussing pocket money, with our teacher telling us how much she gave her kids, how much we got daily/weekly/monthly, etc.. when suddenly...
Ben Goh: Wah Lao Shi, you know in Primary school I only got 70 cents a day!
Lao Shi and all of us: -GASP- WHAT!?!?!?!
Ben Goh: Orh, but I bring lunchbox.
Lao Shi and all of us: CHHHHEEEEEEEYYY!!!!!!!!!!
Kao. Super funny can. Couldn't stop laughing. Idiot =P
Then Cher told us about these Caucasians who were gonna debate in Chinese. Then Matthew started to speak like them. You know, like I Not Stupid that kinda American-chinese accent. Yeah. Super funny. Joker =P and ironically, he sounded realistic enough. Haha. Funny.
Got home at like 5 I think. Dad picked my brother up. Super funny sia. Well, I started on my CBSI homework when I got home and my brother headed to the toilet, as usual. So I was like halfway thru when planes flew by. As usual. Just so happened that my brother was saying something to me...
Cor: aogbawpoguibwpoibgibpownrg...
Me: what?
Cor: aogbawpoguibwpoibgibpownrgwtoubibbwrgrv...!!
Me: What??
Cor: aogbawpoguibwpoibgibpownrgwgiobnpionevwatve!!!!
Me: WHAT!?!?!?! -frustrated-
(planes disappear)
Cor: Can you get me the nail clipper??
Me: Tsk. People trying to study God's Word here... Tsk. So inconsiderate. Tsk. -gets nail clipper and passes it to brother-
Cor: THANKS ah.
Me: YA LA! Tsk.
Cor: OIH! I'm trying to be HOLY right!
Me: YA! by CUTTING your nails right! Can't you see I'm totally trying to demonstrate God's Word by being NICE to you here!
Cor: Ya! Demonstrating LOVE and PATIENCE indeed!
Me: Ya la! You don't come and ARGUE with me ok!
It was super funny la. I was shouting from my room, he from the toilet. Obviously we were just playing.. (duh, we don't get angry over such rubbish, or nails, to be accurate =P) super funny.
Which reminds me of today. Was gonna have dinner with another family. Ok you see, Dad's gonna become a Pastor. So has to have these meetings with his mentor, who's like, a family friend. And it's very strange. (He just got his certificate to be a preacher after preaching for what, 27 years!?) (And we've known this other family for ages, they've seen my brother and I grow up for ages -as long as we've lived la-, yet they need to see how our family is like, procedures ya? To see if my dad's 'worthy' of becoming a pastor...)
So anyway. Dad told us to be on our 'best behaviour', not like we were very worrying or anything. So once again bro and I totally contradicted ourselves. Too lazy to type la. But things like 'Yeah, we don't use vulgarities at all.' -spills water on self- 'WAH WHAT THE!?! -include indecent vulgarities here-' (btw, we did censor them ourselves, didn't use anything displeasing) Funny monsters.
Anyway, just had a nice time convincing Calista of certain... issues... =P She'd know what I'm talking about. Haha. Nice girl to talk to, new found friend XD Currently talking about relationships/dating and stuff, which eventually leads back to the Almighty God =) As usual. wee! Go kia! wahaha.
Anyway. Here's another SUPER DUPER LONG POST for you. If you're still reading, I salute you. =) loyal fan... haha. Thanks!
God bless you guys!
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:44:00 pm
Friday, September 02, 2005 :)
(and that's supposed to be you, btw)
Okok. Not monsters; lovely friends... =P
Anyway, you're supposed to be saddified cos I can't blog now. wahaha. Today's been great la. Super cool can XP yesterday too, for that matter. Guess I'll blog about it next week. Tomorrow's gonna be packed again. Sunday too, I guess. So, yeah.
DON'T CRY FOR ME, ARGENTINA!!
Lame, Marianne. Ya, I know.
But anyway, try not to miss me la hor? I promise I'll blog soon, enough =P
Take care! Oh yeah, check out Naim's blog. Get a kick outta it XD <-- free advert there ok!
BYEEE!!!
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:48:00 pm
Maine's hand. Tsk. She's so not subtle. Thinking of me too much, eh? That doesn't give you the liberty to write my name all over your fingers, girl. =P
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