Wednesday, September 14, 2005 :)
HEY GUYS. So sorry, I haven't really blogged for what, 5 days?!?! -insert exaggerated gasp here- Been really busy, haven't PROPERLY come online for quite a while... -gasps at self- (Well actually the real reason's cos I want you to miss me... right?)
But anyway, life's been weird. 'You're really weird!' right... Been having weird dreams. Occasionally, but they're so weird they actually stay in my head!? Yeah. Is God speaking to me? 2/3 of my weird dreams were about failure: and both times it was a fail of 47/100. See? So significant I even can remember the score. Aiee.
Shucks, I'm falling back. Slacking too much liao. -pulls up socks- Marianne's comin' back! (Now wait, how many times have I said that already... -mumbles-) Argh. Seems like so many things are hitting me now. Darts coming in all directions to knock me down. To make me fall. ARGH. It's fear. My fear. My fear of failing, of not living up to expectations. Not that there are THAT many; but enough to kill. Ok fine, not kill, but get me worried.
I dreamt I failed my piano exam. I think it'll turn into reality. Seriously. And I don't know how I'll take it. ARGH. Talking to competitive people seriously kills. No good comes out of it; not much. ARGH. I can't take it. God help me.
And Alex- I really don't know what's happening to him. Seriously. Everyone's trying to help, but he's not letting us. And honestly, VERY honestly, it's a waste. For a prodigy like that, he's wasting his life away. Come on dude, BE A MAN. DO THE RIGHT THING. I know you've got it in you, somewhere down there. But it's just buried. Dig it out.
ARGH. Idiotic. Is this what the devil's doing to me? No, I won't let you win, you bloody idiot. Literally bloody. -prays- Ok. I'm fine now. =P Man, I love God.
So lets talk about more HAPPY/GAY things, shall we? =P More like I blabber, you sleep. -laughs at own joke- Oh marianne you're so funny. Haha I know! Thanks! (and I bet you're going "errrrrr!!!!!" -insert worried look here-)
Haha. School rocks la. I love 2e1. Life is full of ups and downs, ain't it? I love the laughter we have in class; thanks to idiotic jokers (ya la we all know who) Lets see.. we all couldn't stop laughing that day. Miss Faten included. What were we doing ah? Something la. So she was just walking around. Stopped at Naim's desk.
Miss Faten: Is this a joke!?! -amused face-
Naim: Heh.
Miss Faten: -takes up 'Sweet Valley Twins book'- I thought only primary school girls read this!?
Naim: Heh. But it helped me get first for English!!! -hopeful grin-
Lmao. Idiotic. Then during history. Wa kao cannot tahan. Humanities IT Room. (Due to the fear or Terence breaking a chair when he got on; or due to his 'sufficient intelligent' in using a dustpen/broom to pull the stringless screen down,) Mr Tay called on Naim. Who, as usual, made a fool of himself. Can't believe I'm laughing typing this now. Wahaha. Pictures stay etched in my head =P Well the screen obviously was too high. But he still jumped like an idiot. Oh man I cannot tahan. Jump and jump and jump -include retarded Naim's anxious/hapless/worried/about to cry tones here- Cannot tahan. Aimless jumping idiot. LMAO.
Mr Tay was funny. Was interchanging OHP and Whiteboard. You know what kinda mess that creates? =P A funny one. Lol. Didn't know whether to laugh or not. You know, might be seen as being rude kia right. But couldn't hold it in all the same so... =P LMAO AGAIN.
Mr Tay: Ok, so this is how you answer blah blah blah -points at transparency flashed on screen- -AIYA IN OTHER WORDS HE'S USING THE OHP LA-
Mr Tay: Now look at this blah blah blah -releases screen to show white board-
Mr Tay: blah blah -pulls screen down again-
(this part still ok. THEN)
Mr Tay: -releases screen to show white board-
Class: -tries to control laughter-
Mr Tay: -smile-
Lol. Think he realised why we were giggling. Lol. It's weird you know, trying to not look like you're laughing when you ARE laughing? Man, constipated look. LMAO.
Oh yeah, did our skit today. Chapters 19-21 can! To Kill A Mocking Bird. Seriously, it's a great book. Some parts really got me hooked. Haha. Anyway, skit didn't turn out THAT badly after all =P In fact the Maine and I scene seemed to amuse our audience. Ms Liong liked it! WOO!! To think I considered taking that part out XD It was a flashback la. And it was err.... a 'rape' scene. So I doubled up as Tom Robinson. Not very right to have a GUY acting as THAT Tom Robinson, would it? Lol. Got 29/40 at first, but for good behaviour she added 3 marks, so 32/40!! -cheers- that makes 80. WOO!! Nice.
And Daryl Bong really did a great job. Memorised 6 paragraphs!? WHOOA. GREAT JOB DUDE =D and to the rest of the team too. WOO! ^21!! Khye An was the 'real' Tom Robinson; whom Ms Liong said sounded Bangladeshy -tries to control laughter- Hey, at least he sounded like something! LMAO.
At the rate I'm LingMAO, I don't think I'm gonna have one left -_- LMAO.
So... I think I've said enough. Oh wait, not yet =P
Oh but then again, I'll save it for next time =D Heh. Take care guys =)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your days, sing His praise, and He will carry you through. (Sixpence None The Richer sang this =))
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:13:00 pm
