Sunday, October 02, 2005 :)
Mmm... so it was a good day today. That's good, right? Well, minus the little bad, it was good =)) God's day is always good =D
Youth Worship was good. Surprisingly. Haha. Had to chiong type Marianne Lee's slides for extended worship in 15 minutes can. Pressure pressure. But anyway. Got it done. Yay. Haha. Breakfast fellowship wasn't as good as expected la. The truth is never nice to hear. Ok, just sometimes. Somehow although I wasn't guilty of what was said I felt like it was arrowed at me or something. Paranoia.
Went for service with a somewhat unsettled mind/heart. But worship changed everything. Was really touched. Somehow all the songs sang today really spoke to me. They just made me so ashamed of myself. With all that's been happening, how I've dealt with these situations. Relying on myself and not God. How stupid can I get?
Managed to keep awake during pastoral prayer. Yes, that is an accomplishment. And I WAS praying. Yes, bigger accomplishment. A very good message. Very. Good. I didn't think it would've appealed to me but I was wrong. "What to Leave at the Communion Table". Doesn't seem like much right?
Wrong. It really spoke to me. Really. Touched me deep down inside. So during communion, for the first time although I don't actually take it, I prayed. Like, seriously la. Committed everything into His hands. Left behind my guilt, my burdens, my grudges, my bitterness. Left them all with Him. I know He's in control. And that's VERY nice to know, by the way.
So well. Had this publicity thing for Camp Orion. Wasn't very interested initially but it seems really cool now. Can. Only thing's that I'm like, Sec 2, so won't be with the majority in the Sec 3/4 batch but that doesn't really matter. I'm not sure if I can even make it but oh well. Had Evangelism Discussion. And this line has been preying on my mind for like, 2 weeks now. You know that's really irritating!?!?!
To say that absolutely nothing is absolutely true is affirming absolute truth.
Like, what right?!? RIGHT. Wurgghh. And when I finally got it last last friday, my mum confused me again. Aiyo. -tests self to see if I still understand- Yes, I do. Oh thank God. I've finally got it. So it's the irony la? So many 'absolute' for what kia right. Makes people like me who tend to think too much (cos TOO smart, or maybe stupid) confused mania. Tsk tsk.
Worship practice. Tried out drums. Feel like giving a shot at it now ;P -winks and sticks out tongue- Just realised that's a kinda retarded face but anyway. Tried 'One Way' without knowing a proper beat. Turned out like 'WHAT!?!?' yeah. Lol. So after that my brother taught me a teeny weeny bit and I drummed much better. Amateur.
And idiotic Shaun kia kept playing that piece. SO PRO FOR WHAT RIGHT. Diaoo. Haha. Fingers like not even touching the keys can. So swift mania. NAFA kia.
Mmm hmm. So yeah. Gotta ascend the throne, take a shower and get back to literature. HAIYO. To think Glen's already started studying and is memorising and has read the History textbook 7 times. Siao mania.
So well. Take care guys =)
I cast all my cares upon You
I lay all of my burdens down at Your feet
Anytime I don't know what to do
I will cast all my cares upon You.
1 Peter 5:7 - Cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you.
That's exactly what I'm gonna do. You should too.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:30:00 pm
