BETTER THAN LIFE :)

Wednesday, November 30, 2005 :)

a million bucks for my thoughts

I was just thinking... of this:

Why am I working so hard if eventually, well, hopefully, I'm gonna become a tai-tai in floral shirts with heavy pockets full of wads of cash who chases after little monkeys scampering around the house a.k.a: housewife. I wouldn't wanna be a tai-tai, really. Eew.

You see, if I'm gonna be a housewife, I can just slack my school life away. Took me so long to realise. Tsk tsk tsk. And I could appeal for 3e3 instead and be with all my best buddies and enjoy school life more. And I could still go to JC since I don't exactly know how to not study for exams. And I won't have to slog my guts out studying medicine........

But then again, if I don't even get married........

Oh wait, I'm supposed to stay single and available in case Daryl gets desperate, right? That is actually highly likely. But WHO CARES. Oh man. I need inspiration to keep up my ambition, you know? And I'm actually inspired by Marianne Lee to do social work now. HA.

Oh heck. God has the path laid out in front of Him, not me. I'll just walk along blindfolded and go wherever He leads. =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:04:00 pm

cooking mania

Wee. What a nice, productive day! (Yes, sleep IS productive. Better than rotting in front of my computer) First, sectionals were good. Which reminds me, I've gotta do something =P

Then went home, watched The School of Rock again. Rented the VCD for free =P Had a coupon. Upon rental, they gave me another coupon -_- expires 4/12 so must go back everyday. Haha. Think they're sick of my face already. The show rocks la ok. I was really rockin' with them at the end -wink- They're good.

Then read about 5 chapters of Left Behind #35. Woo. I just love that book. Gotta go bring it to the library and get the next few. Think I'm becoming a bookworm. Ouch. Nice habit since I don't think I've actually picked up any vocabulary this year. Or maybe I haven't been writing enough to... insert the new... words. Oh no.

Finally got tired so took a nap. Finally kia right. Took a 10 minute one at first. Woke up, amazingly. Then decided I had nothing else to do so took a half-hour one. Then decided to just sleep.

Woke up and cooked. Yes, cooked. Wee. Been waiting so long la ok. With the help of mummy, made wan tons =P Did it once in primary school and I was so addicted to it I decided I had to make more... hehehe. So we had dinner at home. Home-cooked food in the Hui clan is rare, I'm telling you. Maybe that's why I love home-cooked food so much even if it's the simplest dishes, while everyone else complains. Mmm.

Dug into the fridge in hope of finding some chocolate, but amazingly, found none. White chocolate rocks. Got some from sar-ee on Sunday. Disappeared by yesterday. Ahhhh. -craves- Really man. Miracles do happen. We just don't realise that they do. No chocolate in my fridge = miracle.

Oh yeah. I got an invitation this morning at 12.30am to go to WWW (Wild Wild Wet) today. Wouldn't mind if not for some tiny obstacles. Wanted to but this morning was so exhausted upon waking up that I decided I wouldn't bring my costume to school and just forget it. No regrets though I'd have loved to go. Fantasy Island rocked when it existed. Really. Probably the greatest attraction in Singapore la!

I was gonna say something but I got distracted. Thanks ah Desiree and blog. Oh, to all alto 1s reading this, I'm really proud of you guys. Keep up the good work yeah =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:00:00 pm

Tuesday, November 29, 2005 :)

enthusiastic! oi! oi!

Because why? Because Marianne is actually revising her scores and going through the notes and rhythm all over again although she knows it well and memorising her foreign, alien-like words!

Amazing, huh? I should go on Guiness' World Records.

Hey everyone out there, if I can do it, you can too! Lets chiong our guts out the next week ok. The next 2 choir practices. Yes, only 2 left before our competition. Lets bring something back kias =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:55:00 pm

Monday, November 28, 2005 :)

grinz

What's up with that? almost put 'humph!' as a title. That's so gay.

I have this urge to take up a job. Wanted to, actually. I mean. That's so cool la. Experience + money + things to do other than homework. Woo. But... homework/competitions/school get in the way. Please man.

THIS IS NOT CALLED 'HOLIDAY'.

I really would like to sue MOE. But of course, I would lose, and I don't have the money to pay up. Wa lao. A holiday is to TAKE A BREAK FROM WORK. Not WORK HARDER FOR NEXT YEAR. We have lives, ok? Idiots.

And like Daryl said, what's the point of stupid book reviews which aren't even collected? Just read the books yourselves if you're so free. We aren't, you know? We've got movies to catch and games to play and planes to fly on. So please.

Wait, if they're not even gonna collect... Ya. So I decided I'd do one with a 'book' published by the great author, Marianne Hui, write a whole load of crap about it and why we shouldn't need to do book reviews (which is what my book is about). Well I shall be fair, I'll just do an argumentative. See? I bet they won't even read it.

Ok, I should stop here before I get more pissed off with Singapore's super kiasu and suicide-causing education system.

I tell you, memorising 5 verses of French can really kill your brain cells. Okok, they kill mine, not yours. But yes, it still does kill. And we're gonna have to memorise Latvian. Oh no. I sense death. -recalls to kill a mockingbird- Ooooh how I love that book =P

Oh, and I'm getting into the habit of reading before sleeping. Wow right? Cos I don't want to sleep early and there's nothing else to do. So I read like, 8 chapters last night before sleeping, woke up and read another 3 cos I can't think of any other homework to do.

Cos I would wish to copy and not actually wreck my brains over homework that is not even worth it. I mean, like, book reviews and Chinese, which I don't happen to understand. Of course I do the rest that IS productive, which is all my other English and Maths and Compre and stuff.

Next time give essays instead of book reviews. I'll definitely do them.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!3:50:00 pm

Sunday, November 27, 2005 :)

finally

Eh, I think I have a lot of repeated titles... but heck. Super tired. Thank God I can sleep in tomorrow. All the Lord of the Ringers coming over early in the morning. Who cares? I'll just close my door and sleep on man =P

You go girlfriend!

I know.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:37:00 pm

Saturday, November 26, 2005 :)

LingMAO

Just spammed Maine with a whole lotta crap (with reference to her nick which says 'baby you're my everything' and 'be my dance partner' in chinese.) Hahahaha.

Well, she replied via sms, telling me her sister's fiancee was using the computer. So all my heartfelt emotions and worthful words were read by someone else... haiz... heartbroken.

YA RIGHT.

So now her sister's fiancee is laughing his ass off, she's laughing her ass off, and now I'm laughing my ass off. HAHA. THIS IS FUN =P

Adventure of the day man.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:21:00 pm

Friday, November 25, 2005 :)

YAYNESS

Yes, I just got back. Farewell night was great =) What can I say? I'm just really really glad the seniors enjoyed themselves. At least all the time committed was worth it XP

Wasted 2 hours in school doing non-productive things like talking to Ellis, Kai Wei, Kenneth and Adele online although they were in the same room. Right. I could've done well with an extra 2 hours of nice sleep! But anyway.

The game was kinda cool, though everyone was out to kill everyone and nobody was really capturing flags. Haha. What is this, promoting killing/murder/manslaughter/violence!?! Uh oh. (and I got blisters trying to get your lightsticks ok. I don't chase where got fun right =P)

Skit was great la. Much better than I'd expected it to be. Quite the funny la, hor =P Hope there's a video... hehehe... Couldn't stop laughing at Ellis/Kenneth's crap. Ta boleh tahan. Wee I love it =D

Anyway, I'm really gonna miss all the seniors. Really great people la, ok. I'll miss people like Amantha, Shi Yong, Shi Hui, Cui Xia, Yuan Jing, Pei Si, and especially my dearest Katween. But it ain't the end; Samuel is still the link =P Good excuse to meet up with Kat; heh.

Ok. I've gotta get out of these jeans and black shirt and have a nice good shower. I hope tomorrow I don't have tuition. -mutters-

Tired, but happy.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:29:00 pm

Thursday, November 24, 2005 :)

correction

to post on 20 November, Sunday.

Priscilla was a GREAT host. Really. She was great =P Actually adding this cos she wanted me to but still... she was really hospitable. You go girl friend!!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:07:00 pm

scraped

Yes, the skin came off my knee due to my fall-to-the-floor-and-cry-hysterically enthusiasm. Haha. I can't wait for tomorrow.

Spent 12 hours in school today. For choir. Really exhausted. 12 hours in school is... bad enough. 12 hours in school for choir ALONE is worse. Not that I dislike choir or anything, I enjoy real practices. But no, not for 12 hours, thank you very much. Not all of it was singing, but still. Worn out.

And I'm sick again. Had a tough time breathing today. Blocked nose. So it's a duh I had a tough time breathing. Imagine if we didn't have mouths...

Gonna turn in. Really exhausted. Been sleeping at 1 and waking up at 7. Unearthly hours. OH SHUCKS! I FORGOT TO CALL PHANG LAO SHI!! Argh. Die.

Anyway. Decided not to argue with Daryl about something. Shall not let something so trivial affect our friendship, since I can safely say he's my best guy-friend. Shall not pursue the matter. I don't know where this is coming from but anyway.

Just watched the last episode of Lost. Not too bad. Very interesting. Sad king man. Evil crooks. -angry face- Um ok. So Lost 2 premiers in March 2006. That's so stupid la! Show during the holidays can. Then people like me will watch right. Not very smart.

Okok. Good night =) PS: Do tag please, my tsunami's becoming less... tsunamified.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:03:00 pm

Wednesday, November 23, 2005 :)

overboard

Think I'm pushing the limits. Heh. Just watched an M18 show. With my brother and DAD, of course =P heh.

You go girl!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:32:00 pm

Oooh. 101st/th/nd post. Haha. Missed the 100 mark. Oh heck. Wasted time in school today. Was gonna catch dodgeball cos I needed to return it by today. So now I'm paying an extra dollar to keep it for one more day. Thanks ah.

And tomorrow gotta go early again. Can't wait for farewell night. Because why?

#1 The games are gonna rock

#2 I get to see the seniors again (KATHRYN =P)

#3 There's some dumb skit (no I'm not looking forward to my part) but it'll be fun. I hope.

So there, 3 reasons to look forward to farewell night =P And kat passed me her chem/physics books. I was thinking along the lines of 2 when she passed me 7. Almost fainted.

Okok. Gotta rush farewell night preparations. You guys'd better love it =P

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:48:00 pm

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 :)

Ignore me.

Testing font size for the sake of some 'vip' who says it's crammed up =P Go get specs la. Haha.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:23:00 pm

Don't feel like blogging. So I shall blog this. Lame crap. Wurrghh.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:32:00 pm

Monday, November 21, 2005 :)

oh no

Oh no la. I think I contracted the Harry Potter disease already. So bored that I'm 'researching' wahaha. Found some cute pictures, and some nice ones too. Haha. And I realised that Malfoy guy looks so much better without the horrid long hair. In fact, all of them look better without the horrid long hair. Waha.

Hmm. Lets see, who I like on the set. I like, very importantly, Ron Weasley =P Hermione (duh), Viktor Krum and Neville. Oh, and now I like Draco Malfoy. Wahaha. Oh, and Cho Chang XD Heh.

He looks so much better here. Gee. Image hosted by Photobucket.com

Rupert Grint - DOB: 24 Aug =P Image hosted by Photobucket.com

I think this is so cute la ok. Wahaha. Image hosted by Photobucket.com

Yes, this too. Adorable XD Image hosted by Photobucket.com

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:09:00 pm

Hmm. Yes, I am bored. Thought this would be fun. Heh.

Name: Marianne

Sex: F

D.O.B.: 28 Aug 91

Eyes: Brown

Hair: Brown-black

Have you ever...

drank: sipped, Y

smoked: N

kissed the same sex: Y, Mum

kissed the opposite sex: Y, Dad

skinnydipped: N, duh N

broken a bone: Y

failed a class: N

killed someone: N, duh N

cried over a boy or girl: Y

had a death in the family: Y

ran around nude: Y, at the age of 2 maybe

eating: Nothing

talking to: Nick and Amanda

phone with: No one

time: 6:24pm

drinking: Uh, saliva?

listening to: Best day of my life =P

When was the last time you...

smiled: 6:24pm

cried: Saturday

bought something: Does breakfast count?

danced: October

were sarcastic: I'm never sarcastic

talked to an ex: Ain't got one =)

watched your favorite movie: Er. -shrugs-

had a nightmare: Can't remember. I tend to laugh at them.

What is the last...

book you read: 36 Short Stories by Jeffrey Archer

movie you saw: Freaky Friday

song you heard: Don't know the title leh

thing you had to drink: Water, er, peng

time you showered: 8.30am

thing you ate: Macaroni Cheese

Do you...

live in the moment?: Y, most of the time

have a dream that keeps coming back?: N, used to. Found it funny.

play an instrument?: Y

believe there is life on other planets?: N

read the newspaper?: Y, when I do get hold of one

have any gay or lesbian friends?: Y, my friends are happy people

believe in miracles?: Y

believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Y

consider yourself tolerant of others?: Y, except for intolerable cases. Right

have a favorite candy?: Y

believe in astrology?: N, cos I ain't sure what it is. Gee

believe in God?: Y, definitely =)

pray?:Y

go to church?: Y

have any secrets?: Y, duh

have any pets?: N

do well in school?: Y, for now

ever go to college?: N

have a major?: N

talk to strangers who instant message you?: To ask who, Y

have any piercings?: Y

have any tattoos?: N

have an obsession?: I don't know

collect anything?: N

have a best friend?: Y

wish on stars?: N

like your handwriting?: Y

have any bad habits?: Y, duh

care about looks?: Y, who doesn't?

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:37:00 pm

Sunday, November 20, 2005 :)

broken hearts, broken lives

He will mend them all =)

Hmm. Went to Priscilla's church yesterday. It was great la, ok. It was really cool, like, the auditorium wasn't really an auditorium la, ok. And there are 400+ youths in the church! Hmm... haha. Ok. It was kinda good, except for the fact that they were showing some really, really weird videos. Some. Only 2, both by the same guy in some concert in New York or something. The rest by Planetshakers and stuff were good =)

Worship was kinda cool. Only knew the first song 'Tell the World' by Hillsong. Haha. There was this like, synchronised jumping thing. Haha. Interesting that they jumped and stopped at like, exactly the same time. Weird.

Message was great. Speaker was kinda funny, but that's not the point la. I mean, youth pastors are like that, right? Eg. Chee Hong =P kinda miss his 'messages', or maybe, 'laughing sessions' that do get the point across. But anyway, towards the end of the message I felt like God was really speaking to me. It really was very touching, an emotional time for me (again) felt really moved by the message. God's message. Not that I didn't know it or anything, but sometimes reminders and reinforcements do make a difference touching lives =) Story of the Prodigal Son(s). Haha.

Myanmar mania =P

Anyway, he made so many calls in the end I didn't know which one to commit to! Decided to rededicate my life to Christ. And it was really really weird =P but amusing, to me. Apparently, to them, rededication is when you've backslided and coming back to God after leaving the church, kinda stuff. In KPC, it's just... giving Your life back to Christ, again? Like, reinforcement or something. So it was so weird that they were talking to me like I was a new Christian and stuff. Felt real real weird... Imagine Bong who's a Catholic and went up too... -ponders-

So anyway. Church today was great. Interesting message, about the sanctity of marriage. I guess we really need that reassurance at this point of time. No, in this world. Amazingly I took down like double the amount of notes I usually would take down. I mean, not that I'm Whoa SUPER INTERESTED or something, but was just able to pay attention. Which is good, you know? =)

E. Group discussion was hilarious. I laughed til I cried la. Desiree =P I laugh then you laugh. Then I stop laughing then you giggle a bit. Then I start laughing again. Then you laugh. Then I laugh. what rubbish. Laughing is contagious. Wahahahaha. I'm still very very amused =P WAHAHA!!! And you should've seen Yao Qi's face. Trying to act like nothing was wrong... wahaha!

Ok, gotta catch the last 10 minutes of Harry Potter. Ciao people! =)

Come to the Father

Though your gift is small

Broken hearts, broken lives

He can mend them all

Because of His great love

He gave His only Son

Everything was done

So you would come

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:57:00 pm

Friday, November 18, 2005 :)

turando

Ok, so I have no better title. This is the brand of the speakers of the computer in my room. That sounds weird. My computer is in my room. My computer has speakers. The speakers are manufactured by Turando. Something like that.

So anyway. Was really tired waking up today. Don't know why. Had this weird dream that I can't remember now. Been having weird dreams, really. Weird as in, funny. Like me doing BALLET, or Emily calling me to pray cos her DOG was really sick and then telling me later while crying hysterically that her DOG had died, and I actually feeling my heart breaking as well.

Weird. But funny =P Haha.

So anyway. Returned all my books. Borrowed 4 of Left Behind The Kids in consecutive order. Man alive. There's a first time for everything, really.

Met Maine and Alan for lunch. Crapping all the way. Was really full eating one plate of chicken rice. Skipped breakfast instead of lunch so it was a kinda big breakfast. Ok, fine, a really big breakfast. Headed to TM to meet the rest, a.k.a: Emily, Koong Jye, Terence Teh teh, Najiy, William and Randy. Yeah. Watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Woo. Nice show.

And Emma Watson is simply gorgeous la ok. Especially so when she walked down the stairs and gave that mischievous smile. Nice. But I'm not les. Cedric Diggory or something, don't know how to spell. Haha. He's good-looking I think. Unlike Ron Weasley/Rupert Grint whose hair looked horrid here. Harry Potter too. -shivers- And why are people so prejudiced against that chinese girl huh? Don't see much wrong with that. Racist people -mutters-

Butt was aching -_- Long movie, 2 and a half hours. Shiok. But first time I was itching to stand. Well, not itching. Just... wanting. Whatever. Don't read the top cos I don't know what the heck I'm talking about.

Ok, I should find some nice topics to discuss with, well, perhaps, myself. Hey, it is fun sometimes you know? When you begin to sort things out in your own mind, clearing perceptions with yourself, forming images that are clearer to you. Ok, this is going no where. Fatigue's hitting me!

Received an sms from Desiree saying 'YAY'. Replied. 'YAY'. Replied. 'YAY'. YAY back. 'lalala'. DELETE. Waste my worthful smses replying worthless rubbish =P I really don't know what I'm talking about, again. Please don't read.

Shucks. I'd better shut up. Shall upload more pics when Charmaine sends them over. Joker pang sehed me for her organ. Oi, neighbours need to sleep la! -shakes head- Despite all that I've sacrificed for her... -sigh- and she accuses me of pang sehing her more? Ya, right, for 10 seconds. Haix, imm shooo disappointed lorxx!

Marianne! Shut up! Yes I actually think that's a good idea. Gonna turn in early. Wee. Going to Priscilla's church tomorrow. Managed to convince Bong to tag along =P wee. Believe it will be good. Excited =)

Good night, anyone who's reading this =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:53:00 pm

Thursday, November 17, 2005 :)

ironies

Yes, I know, there ain't many people to talk to at this time of the night. Talking to Thomas and Bong =) Refer to Title here please - Was thinking of stuff to talk about to Thomas again. People like me just don't die trying to make conversation. And then he said 'holidays so nothing to talk about right' Oh man. That is SO ironic. Don't tell me life of teenagers really revolve around school and studies alone!?! That would suck.

So what's up today? Choir. Which was kinda all right. And since Daryl got the part of A1s off his chest, it's my turn. Please close your eyes and scroll down NOW.

So sectionals are kinda quiet. I guess it's much easier to teach just the A1s and the A1s alone, not having the A2s or the guys around. I mean. Just the A2s is bad enough. Not because I don't like them or anything, but because I just can't be myself when they're around. I feel pressurised because Yan Xuan is a better leader than I am and her section performs better than mine and they seem to have more fun. At least with the A1s I can do stupid things since they're all so innocent-looking (and it stops there) and they'll laugh but the A2s are more.... attitudish. Yeah. Pen down.

OK STOP SCROLLING DOWN NOW. NOW NOW NOW.

So I'm talking to Daryl about emotions now. And whether or not he'd cry if I (or any one else very very very close to him, not saying I am,) passed on. Aiya, no need to touch wood. The day will come. So anyway. Discussing why we should/shouldn't cry and whether we would/wouldn't cry. I guess it really all depends. The difference between death and life after death is the hope we see. It makes a great big difference, you know. The peace and the comfort above the grief and the pain. It's so much less burdensome. Really.

I kinda find blogging about meaningful stuff like the above, if you actually find it meaningful, well it is to me so, more satisfying. Rather than the same stuff droning on about how life can suck or not suck so much. I think blogging with emotions and with a steered direction is so much more... direct. And this isn't considered meaningful cos I don't really know what I'm talking about so. Yeah. Pen down here.

For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake (Christ) will find it. Matthew 16:25

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:51:00 pm

Wednesday, November 16, 2005 :)

sims mania

ok, so my body alarm woke me up late. 1.50pm. Ok? Haha. Don't blame me, blame the gingerbread man -_- Err.... Right. Wanted to go back to sleep but Justin invaded my room so yeah. Got up. Lol. Managed to do my book review =D Plus the sentences. But it took up soooo much brainpower (not that there was much due to grogginess) so didn't look up the dictionary. Wahaha.

Turned on the phone and got a whole lotta smses. All regarding the stupid exhibition at Suntec. Wahaha. So happy I wasn't there =))) Eew. That looks like a triple chin. -shivers-

So decided to catch up with my Sims =P Haven't been looking after them for about a year? Neglected all my little families, a.k.a. me. And all my good friends who are just about dying. I think I'll start one neighbourhood WITHOUT the cheat this holiday. See how horribly they'll survive without having a million bucks on their hands. Wahaha.

I (my sim actually) went downtown. In the wee hours of the morning, like, 10pm-6am. What rubbish. Haha. Rushed back because I thought I had to go to work. Went back home and realised the time was back to when I'd left -_- Thanks ah.

Oh, and FINALLY. Got a cure for my boredom. Went with my dad to Punggol Plaza for dinner. Went to Video EZ and rented videos =P And I even have the membership card so I can go rent! Woo hoo! Rented 3 videos today. Wahaha. Saved.

Okok. Interesting using 2 computers at a go. 2 mice/mouses/mouse or WHATEVER la ok. Was gonna use 'mouses' when I realised the plural is mice. What the heck? Aiya. Whatever.

Mmm.. This seriously is difficult. But I can do it. I can do it. I can do it. I must do it. And I will do it. I will resist. Yes I will. =)

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:48:00 pm

angel - westlife

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay

There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back

The storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack

It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:37:00 pm

Tuesday, November 15, 2005 :)

abstracticism (proudly done by Maine) Image hosted by Photobucket.com What the world needs now... abstracticism AGAIN

Glenda, Rae, Me, Daryl, Siao Jon, Roy, Just =) Image hosted by Photobucket.com advertisement for wang sun. (i think that's how it's read) evan, me, des. crazy kias always =P

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!6:54:00 pm

freeee!!! -jumps around-

You heard me!! Finally =) Torture's over. Until Thursday. Torture shall resume. Lol.

We got a merit award =) for this environmentalist thing. Not bad la. Out of 60+ schools, we were top 5. Top 2 spots taken by JCs, so we ain't too bad aiee? I think it's the Sec 2s and their tissue culture stuff. Gonna be doing that next year XP COOL.

It was so super funny. There were only 3 Sec 3s there today, and they all decided to go for lunch at the same time, leaving me and Khye An at the booth. TERROR. Cos we'd have to tell people about THEIR project when we barely knew anything. I knew a little since I watched them present, but that's all I knew. HAHA.

I couldn't stop laughing everytime someone left the booth. We were talking rubbish la ok. Crapping our way through. Like nobody's business. All the inaccurate information and seemingly complicated science theories which really meant nothing. And pointing to different parts of the plants and making up names. Stuff like that. Oh my goodness. I'm laughing now. Freak.

HAHAHAHA. Just re-read the paragraph. Still laughing. Khye An is funny la. And he suddenly thought of the most ingenius explaination for a question these Secondary school kids from Marsiling bombarded me with. Terror.

Had fun going around the booths and learning about mites (eg. ter/dust). Kinda interesting. Played some games too. Haha. Headed off with the joker to City Hall. Crapped all the way again. About how to rush into the MRT station without paying. Haha. Rubbish.

And I'm composing music now. It's really fun. Ehhh Shaun Kia!! I'm making up my own rubbish =P hehehe. It's easier to... uh... unleash creativity when you don't have people standing behind you and watching, you know? Somehow.

I'm shy =X

Ya right.

So... Yeah. For Desiree's song. AND APPARENTLY MY BROTHER IS TOO!?! WHAT IS THIS. Wah, trying to turn siblings against each other ah? =P But anyway. May the best woman win.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!5:30:00 pm

Monday, November 14, 2005 :)

fear is lost in all You are

Long day again. At suntec. Oh sorry, hello =). Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah. Had to go to suntec after meeting at school at 8. Was scampering around getting everything ready and the bus left without me. Was kinda amused myself. Almost didn't run at first, but I thought. Oh heck, better run. So I started chionging after the bus. Lol.

What a joke!

Managed to catch up (since I'm comparable to Dash in the Incredibles) Ya right Marianne. Managed to get the security guard to stop the bus at the gate. Haha. Laughing at myself. Haha. Haha.

Set up everything. Bla de bla. Finished by 12 and killed time til 3. Judging was supposed to start then. Amazingly, we were bored. Valeria and I. UNTIL WE SAW TOYS 'R' US.

Toys r us rocks. Period.

Gotta go catch up with music man. Tower Records, yeah, can go there to kill more hours tomorrow. Great music. So much I'm missing out on. Gotta go check out Jamie Collum. Only got to listen to a lil of the song before damian called to interrupt my... err... don't know what word to use so I'll pass.

Waited another 2 hours til 5 to present. Really exhausting. All of us were so tired. And my hands were shaking as I presented can. Terror. Was rushing and trying to digest all the information and sift them through my brain before spewing them out of my mouth so as not to stutter or fumble or anything. Stress.

Stupid project's really wearing me out. Can't wait for it to be over, though it has been a good experience. Good to face stress, I guess. Good to be made in charge, good to be under expectations. Perform better, I guess. Though mentally I'm more, you could say, 'unstable'. Haha.

I wonder how I can talk so much.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:32:00 pm

Sunday, November 13, 2005 :)

fear and contentment

Hmmm... Youth was good. Rachel Berry and Glenda came!!! =D Mmm... worship was kinda nice, I love 'to the ends of the earth'. Don't you? Was really tired at Bs, medicine causes drowsiness. Kept coughing and sniffling. Wurgh.

Service was great. Worship was great. They sang 'still'! -cheers- Just realised how foolish I'd been, attempting to rely on myself, so weak, so frail, so naive, so immature, when all along God was there, just waiting for me to call on Him. Kinda felt blood gushing to my brain as I felt so overcome just singing the first verse. Tears just came, just let em come. Didn't feel there was anything to hide from God, so yeah. Still was great. Totally awesome.

Kinda meaningful message by Pastor Tim See about contentment. About how the Philippians were still contented despite persecution and all that. Yeah. That we should be contented no matter what. And that wanting change meant discontentment. Makes sense.

Had band practice after that. Really cool. Rocked =P Jamming siaoness. After the real prac, of course. Ended kinda early so went down to talk about all kinds of crap. Again. As usual. Talked about parachutes this time =P With Terence giving life-experiences as a commando on his first jump. Wahaha.

Headed to Kembangan with Jon Ma in Terence's car. Were gonna meet Kim. Decided to 'intercept' by walking towards her place instead of waiting at the MRT. Heh, saw her and hid behind the dustbin. In the end she walked behind us -_- due to her 'supersonic eyes that spotted us even from the furthest distance' (which really wasn't very far) lol. So headed to Tm.

Watched the exorcism of emily rose. Not really very afraid, actually. Only jumped at one part (which I shall not say). Only got a little scared when I got off the bus (at night) and had to go home alone. Already Punggol is ulu enough and I'm always on the lookout/tenterhooks making sure no one's stalking me or anything. Then house was dark and empty. Hmm...

I guess the only reason why I watched it was out of curiosity towards demon-possession. And cos it's based on a true story, so they don't have dead people appearing in mirrors or skeletals crawling out of tv screens and crap like that. Yeah. I think 'the mummy' is more terror. Maybe cos back then I was young and stupid and afraid and my faith was still.... an egg. Maybe that's why I'm not as scared this time. My first horror movie. You know? =P

Should slip off my mind soon. Maybe Kim would freak out if she woke up at exactly 3am. Apparently that's when the devil strikes. Mmm... But I guess I'm not afraid, cos the devil doesn't know what we're thinking. He can't read our mind or our hearts. But he can tempt. Ah, what a relief he doesn't know what I think and feel. Phew.

Stupid presentation tomorrow. I can barely talk without sniffling or coughing uncontrollably. How on earth do I present like this? Brr... but anyway. Shall pray that God puts all the words I need in my mouth aiee! Don't wanna die = Mm... Gonna have an early night. My eyes are tired.

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still
And know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still
And know You are God

I will be still and know You are God.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:35:00 pm

Saturday, November 12, 2005 :)

to the ends of the earth

Mmm... what a day. Woke up late. Went for piano. Went for band practice, which was kinda fun. As usual. One way was a mess the first time!!! Terror!! And my face contorts.

But in the end everything was fine so... haha. Yup. There'll even be a lead guitar! haha. Shaun brought Yolay along. Sweet kia =) Bladebla. Someone can't sing! Oh no...

Headed to Bugis for Billy Bombers. Apparently Tampines was further than the city so... Weird. Ok. Left all my vouchers at home -_- Gotta pass them to a friend before they expire... huh.

Became an 'explosive'. Ate way too much. Man alive. Bro and I were walking at like, 1km/h kinda speed. Is that fast or slow? Slow la that's my point. Anyway. Went to buy some birthday presents (which I totally forgot about thanks to my super busy schedule -_-).

Headed back to Punggol Plaza to get more medicine. At least these are SMALL pills. The last time those were like. Giants. But the syrup sucks. Hopefully I'll lose my voice. Escape presentation on Monday -________- That's so ironic. That's how much I want to miss it. Got an MC just in case I'm really sick.

Just had my dose of medicine. 'yum'. Oh well.

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go
To the ends of the earth

For You alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
That You are God.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:47:00 pm

Friday, November 11, 2005 :)

ex ex x horr tionn

I don't know why on earth I'm here, but I'm here. Dying of exhaustion. Really. I'm just so worn out. Physically. One of my first times, amazingly. Been working non-stop since 9am, stopped at like, 6.30pm. No breaks at all. No toilet breaks. No nothing. And I actually felt my eyes hurt cos I was working on the computer for so long in the teachers' resource room. Oh my goodness.

I'm just so exhausted. Too exhausted for the computer. Shall just rot in front of the tv. No energy for tuition tomorrow morning. Skipping it. Really, too too tired. And I couldn't even sleep last night. Talked to my brother till almost 1am, then my mum til about 1.30am (in my room) and coughed like siao until 4.30am. Or so my mother says. I don't think I coughed that long, though.

It's the really irritating, ticklish cough, you know? Like, no phlegm, just cough like siao cos you can't help it? Argh. Woke up with my throat really pain. Hurts to swallow.

I don't know how I found the energy to chase my bus. Instincts, I guess. The want, the need to get home and biang on my bed, though in the end I didn't. But really. Too exhausted. And I need to make a few phone calls. Argh.

Stupid environmentalist project driving me up the wall. Thank God it'll be over by Tuesday, 5pm for me. I can't wait, you know? And I pray so hard they won't start an 'environmentalist club'. I pray so so hard. Somebody go discourage our HOD about his 'wise idea' please?!?!

Touched by Desiree's tag, again. What's with me? What was with me, rather. Vision got blurred upon reading her tag.

Why is it only you who understands?

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:17:00 pm

Thursday, November 10, 2005 :)

a bleeding heart torn apart

I guess I can make sense if I want to. And I think this holiday ain't too good. Too much free time on my hands. You know what that means?

More time to think.

So old stuff that I've long forgotten about pop back up and make me feel bad. Not like it's my fault or anything, but I just feel... pain. All over again. Like, what is this lah. I don't want to feel this. I know I've let go. I know I've forgotten. But what if the past is still clinging to me?

Argh. Seriously. This must be some kind of joke.

I wonder if anyone really knows how I'm feeling now. Other than my bestest best best friend who's always there. Maybe the one who did this to me would. But then again. Beautiful memories shattered in a second. What could beat that.

Why am I even blogging about this. Now I really feel like throwing my computer out of the window. These 2 days I've just been fighting this urge to break something. I even dug my nail into my hands cos I was so pissed with someone who wouldn't stop annoying me. What is this?!

Is it the stress? Ya right. Stress. Stress my head la. Maybe an attack from the devil? Possibly.

I just wish we could turn the clock back. And let it stop there and never move again. Or maybe you could heal the wounds. But I doubt it.

Very seldom are the wounds healed by the ones who caused them.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:52:00 pm

Wednesday, November 09, 2005 :)

bored to tears

This is torture. I'm bored to death. I can't wait for next wednesday to be over, then there'll be one huge burden off my shoulder, I hope. Don't know why but I'm under a great deal of pressure now. Siaoness. 2 weeks to prepare for a competition? That's rubbish la ok.

And nobody is online (that I can have a nice talk with). Resorting to online games. Oh man. That's so ironic. Maybe I should just go back to the Sims. AH HA!! Yeah, I think I'll start going back to that =P And stop wasting hours and hours online doing nothing. Unless, of course, I can find a good game. How come everyone's not here huh? Dinner hour? Maybe. Argh. Bloody bored -_- And no good tv show is on on Wednesday. Except maybe just for gags at 8. I can't wait.

Oh, and I'm not so sure I wanna study obstetrics anymore. I don't know why, but it sucks. I mean, being unsure. That really sucks. The thing is, I won't know what to be if not a doctor. Maybe a full-time housewife. Well, if I had kids, that's fine la. But if I don't, I'll be what, cleaning the house 24/7? My head la. And I figured I wouldn't really wanna be a postwoman. Or a piano teacher. Well, maybe if I develop a passion for that, it won't be that impossible afterall. Since I will be doing a repertoire with Miss Chiu for 3 years after my Grade 8 theory.

Argh, this sucks la. Sky high, anyone?

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:29:00 pm

cut

What the heck. My retainer cut my tongue! And my friend says 'dig it out more!' Righhtt. Thanks ah =) feel so comforted.. -quoted YOU-

Woke up late again today. Slept at 3.30am cos I couldn't sleep. Argh. Back to being sick. Wurgh. Choking on my phlegm man. Too lazy to get up and take medicine. Kinda broke the cycle. Whoops.

But at least I've got some stuff done. 2 more sums for Math, a summary and 3 book reviews for English, all my chinese and those 2 projects left. Not bad. And I made something for a great friend so... Hmmm ok.

What kinda holiday is this. So super busy. Almost blew up at my mum just now just cos she can be so 'nosey' sometimes. Like giving away my books even when I tell her not to. Got really pissed just now. Plus the stress-load. I don't know where it came from. Wait, I do. But I won't say much about it. Sickness causes irritability. If there is such a word.

Lalala. I feel like doing more work now. Oh WAIT. I need to search for a Mahjong game online first =P It's highly addictive. Worries me but for now, I'll just enjoy it =P

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!5:04:00 pm

Tuesday, November 08, 2005 :)

a dedication

MY DEERie =P Image hosted by Photobucket.com faith heart love my fellow retard. always :)

To my deerie Maine, I think I've owed you this for really long :) Here goes!

Well for a start, this girl's a hell lot of fun to be with. Well, like I've said, fun is 2-WAY, so, yeah, you get the point? =P She's always really bubbly and happy, and it's been great knowing her for the past 2 years. Somehow, the flame in her still burns. Her laugh never fails to bring a smile to my face, no matter how loud or sudden it is. In fact, the louder and the er... suddener, the more contagious it is. Which is a good thing, aiee? Keep showing all those teeth, girl -winks-

She's really a great person to talk to. It's always nice to crap with someone who appreciates it. You appreciate my rubbish, right? Right? You'd BETTER!!! Lol. Since you won't get to have a daily taste of it anymore... how gloomy. But anyway.

So many secrets shared, so many experiences lived, so many corny jokes told, so promises made, so many mysteries unravelled, so much fats liposucked... Oh, sorry. Wrong person =P But all the same, we've had so many great memories together, it's kinda hard to expect us to ever really become just friends. Somehow, for some reason, I have this feeling we'll still be the best of friends, despite being s e pa ra ted. Some things just don't change, and I hope this is one of them :)

Well girl, thanks so much for who you've been. Thank you for being that spark in my life, for letting my flame never go out. This may be a short testimonial, but it's written from the bottom of my heart, with all sincerity. No words could mean more. Lets never forget each other, and our smiles, and our retarded pictures, and all our crap shared. Plus, of course, our best fweenx, our dear Naim, who kept us awake during Math lessons =D

2e1 2005 will always remain in my heart, and so will you, my deer Maine :)

love to faith, love.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:17:00 pm

Monday, November 07, 2005 :)

INTIMIDATING!!!!!

So much medicine for what right. -sigh- 5 types. Siaoness. Came up to $45. Siaoness. Got an MC for tomorrow. Siaoness. Or should I say... INTIMIDATING!!!!!!!!!

Felt really tired this morning, but for some reason goodness got the better of me and I decided to go to school. Since, afterall, I was the one who'd called the meeting. Need to be responsible right. Argh. Spent a loong time in the canteen. 6 hours straight. Siaoo. Didn't even go out of the canteen/eat. Siaoness. But managed to do quite a lot so... yeah. Lol.

So much work. Argh. At least I can sleep in tomorrow. Much-needed rest. And my head still aches. Ouch. Oh well.

Oh YEAH. I waved to CaristaR today! LOL. See? I'm nice =P hahahaha. riighhhtt, whatever Marianne.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:18:00 pm

Sunday, November 06, 2005 :)

sick kia

Argh. retyping this post. How sucky. Super sick now. Headache, fever, phlegm, flu. Argh. School tomorrow. Environmentalist project. Killer. Super busy.

Went to give our tissue pacs today. Street evangelism, but my pair didn't really get to share to anyone. Quite a let down. But the distributing was kinda cool. The tissue pacs are cool la. I kept one for myself. Stickers on the back. Desiree was sticking them super slanted la. 'trademark' indeed. Haha.

Gotta run. Hell. So many blinking, orange boxes at the bottom of my screen. Oh yeah.

All the very very best to all those taking their exams these few weeks. God bless man =) You shouldn't be reading this but if you are, may the force be with you =D Take care to all!

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:46:00 pm

Saturday, November 05, 2005 :)

appreciation.

Haha. Ok, after going to my friend's church last night... KPC Rocks. Hmm, not because it was bad or anything. I guess I'm just so used to how I've been worshipping God the past 14 years of my life. The church had like, escalators and lifts and all. Christmas decor even. And there was so much empty, unused space! Compare that to KPC, with only one lift for disabled people that ascends at 10cm/s. Lol. And you need a key to work it =P The irony.

But it's ok, we have games on the stairs. Bond on the stairs. Sing on the way up and fill the whole stairway with our echoes. It's nice =D

Worship was like, whoa. Power-packed. Didn't really know any of the songs, though. Message was hmm... I don't know what to say. From Joshua 12:1-27, but Joshua 12 has 24 verses = haha. Interesting, nonetheless. Kinda funny pastor who fumbled with pronunciations. Lol.

In the end they had this altar call thing. Kinda weird for me. It's like everyone just went up so automatically. Kinda unnatural for me. So Just and I stood where we were. For a while. Then I just stood on the aisle. I guess it was supposed to speak to me but it wasn't really. Maybe too new an environment, too fast for a change. Ahhh. That's bad, you know? But anyway.

Got up earrrrly this morning. 6.30am on a Saturday morning. UNNATURAL. Got there super early. Half an hour early, in fact. Lol. So just read my book til Zi zhao. Talked to him about our class. -sigh- and our next year's classes. Visit to the old folks home was kinda cool, though the smell was kinda bad initially. Like, sickness kinda smell. Sing sing sing. Zao =P

Chionged to piano, then to Bong's house. Super fun can.

I KNOW HOW TO PLAY MAH JONG. Amazing....

Finally got it. Played for like 2 hours? 3? So fun for what right. Oh, and Daryl has this super cute cousin, aka Christabelle's brother, who helped me at first. Really cute la. I thought he was like lower primary or something, then found out he was in P5. Okaayyy... haha. Gobbled down pizza at dinner. Hungry mania = then musicked with Bong on his totally-out-of-tune guitar. Argh. Haha. Quite nice la. Managed to sing a few songs. And I played 'everyday' on the guitar? Whoa. Haha. Shifted to the piano and Bong didn't let me tune his guitar. PLEASE MAN. Lol. Ended up I tuned it after a lot of convincing. So much better. Not bad la. Can go make album liao.

Riiigggghhhht.

I pray tomorrow goes well. I pray really hard tomorrow goes well. Lets all pray eh.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:47:00 pm

Friday, November 04, 2005 :)

Woo hoo. Caught tom yum goong last night with my family. Woo hoo. The show totally rocked la ok. Seriously. Best show I've seen in a loooooong time. Really good action. Non-stop, power-packed. Siaoness! Tona Jaa rocks =D makes Jackiiieeee seem amateur. Isn't that ironic.

Man alive. I wonder how many bones were broken. Ouch can. Justin and I are gonna get the VCD and count the number of crunches we hear =P thought it was kinda low-budget at first... But looking at the amount of property destroyed. Heart pain.

And I'm happy cos today I woke up at 9.30 on my own, without my alarm clock! Wahaha. So I managed to do some homework. Yaaayyy! I think it's better to sleep slightly earlier and wake up a lot earlier, than to sleep very late and wake up verryy late. You guys know what my verryy late is right. Hmmm...

Currently smsing Charmaine. Haha. So funny for what right =P She sent me our recording of me and her singing and stupid Naim in the background. Couldn't stop laughing. HAHA.

Okok. Gotta run soon. Choirrrr =D Ladidada. Then I'm gonna check out my friend's youth service. Cool. I need inspiration for Sunday. Badly. Hopefully it'll be good. :)

Streaming results out today. Good luck man =) Peace.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:01:00 am

Wednesday, November 02, 2005 :)

Yes, if you found an article in the newspaper on tuesday morning saying 6 KPC youths were missing, they were probably camping out at the Boey's residence.

According to Daryl, it became a refugee camp. Lol. Can't help but laugh.

Haha.

Yay. Finished updating the whole choir's details for our trip can. -phew-. I guess this only happens during holidays right. Ahhh. So much to do. Thank God it is holidays.

_______________________

I need it. Need it. But it can wait. Lord help me wait.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:59:00 pm

Tuesday, November 01, 2005 :)

Wee. What a nice day yesterday was, right? haha. Woke up at 1.20pm can =P so shiok for what right. air con somemore XD -rubs it in- but anyway. Didn't get to sleep until 6-7am la so... quite fair right? haha. Lets see what happened...

Ok, so left home at about 2.45 to meet Desiree at Boon Lay at 4. This is what I call siaoness. Bla-de-bla bla. Oh, kinda ironic. Saw this woman with her 2 toddlers. Right under the 'no eating/drinking - fine $500' sign, she took out a piece of ham, gave it to the older child, and opened a packet of sweets for the younger one. Man alive. Oblivious? Hmmm. Wonder how I'll take care of my kids in 15 years time... -ponders- WHOA. Marianne Jr. SCARY.

So got to her house and went to the gym. WAHAHA. Not as easy as it looks can. Can. But still quite shiok la. Althought I don't really know how to use the stuff there. Hmmm... I need FBTs.

Dinner was great la. Pizza/pasta/sushi/fried rice. Wah, what more can I ask for! =D Hehe. Quite fun la, with people like Samuel/Edward/Claudia around. Sia la, eat and choke can. And Ben was super h.l about his marks can.

Wah lao. I topped my level for Geography again leh. -wah AGAIN sia- Ya lor. Third time only! (starts complaining about the mid-year exam that he got overtaken by another guy) TA BOLEH TAHAN.

So anyway. Had table tennis showdown. All the rubbish la =P Quite fun. Then played Risk. Had to evacuate by 10 so only had half an hour to play. Haha. rubbish. Then Amanda came along and spilled the drink over the whole board.

Samuel: TSUNAMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh. Total rubbish. Cannot tahan. Haha. Cut the cake (which was really really nice) and went back up. Played tai tee and whatever not. Stress. Then Risk. 6 hours, can? Started at 11pm, ended at 5am. Siaoness! I felt kinda sian by like 3.30am or so. All formed alliances and so nobody was really attacking anyone. While Duane built up forces in Europe. Every country 22 men. Kiasee =P

Quite fun la. So finally felt quite sian, all went to sleep. In the hall. At 5.30am. Oh yeah, suddenly EVERYONE stayed over. Siao king. From Evan and Claud, to Sam and Ed, then me, then Ben, then Shu Hui. Totally steady poom pee pee la. Really quite siao. And Ben's nose-blowing, cough-spitting antics kinda grossed me out. Aiee.

Couldn't get to sleep cos once I lay down my throat had this tingling sensation. Very ticklish la. So kept coughing non-stop. Took so long to get into a position whereby my nose wouldn't run (got Ben's flu) and I wouldn't cough my lungs out. Haiyo.

Had leftover dinner for breakfast. Haha. Shiokadelic food. Then had our bowling competition. Not too bad la =) It was fun, I guess? Haha. Bowling is always fun =D

So I'm gonna take a nap and wake up for dinner, I hope. Lol.

The month has begun. So far, nothing much. But the hunger isn't really a major problem. Resisting the temptation is.

What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!4:23:00 pm