Thursday, November 10, 2005 :)
a bleeding heart torn apart
I guess I can make sense if I want to. And I think this holiday ain't too good. Too much free time on my hands. You know what that means?
More time to think.
So old stuff that I've long forgotten about pop back up and make me feel bad. Not like it's my fault or anything, but I just feel... pain. All over again. Like, what is this lah. I don't want to feel this. I know I've let go. I know I've forgotten. But what if the past is still clinging to me?
Argh. Seriously. This must be some kind of joke.
I wonder if anyone really knows how I'm feeling now. Other than my bestest best best friend who's always there. Maybe the one who did this to me would. But then again. Beautiful memories shattered in a second. What could beat that.
Why am I even blogging about this. Now I really feel like throwing my computer out of the window. These 2 days I've just been fighting this urge to break something. I even dug my nail into my hands cos I was so pissed with someone who wouldn't stop annoying me. What is this?!
Is it the stress? Ya right. Stress. Stress my head la. Maybe an attack from the devil? Possibly.
I just wish we could turn the clock back. And let it stop there and never move again. Or maybe you could heal the wounds. But I doubt it.
Very seldom are the wounds healed by the ones who caused them.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!7:52:00 pm
