Sunday, November 13, 2005 :)
fear and contentment
Hmmm... Youth was good. Rachel Berry and Glenda came!!! =D Mmm... worship was kinda nice, I love 'to the ends of the earth'. Don't you? Was really tired at Bs, medicine causes drowsiness. Kept coughing and sniffling. Wurgh.
Service was great. Worship was great. They sang 'still'! -cheers- Just realised how foolish I'd been, attempting to rely on myself, so weak, so frail, so naive, so immature, when all along God was there, just waiting for me to call on Him. Kinda felt blood gushing to my brain as I felt so overcome just singing the first verse. Tears just came, just let em come. Didn't feel there was anything to hide from God, so yeah. Still was great. Totally awesome.
Kinda meaningful message by Pastor Tim See about contentment. About how the Philippians were still contented despite persecution and all that. Yeah. That we should be contented no matter what. And that wanting change meant discontentment. Makes sense.
Had band practice after that. Really cool. Rocked =P Jamming siaoness. After the real prac, of course. Ended kinda early so went down to talk about all kinds of crap. Again. As usual. Talked about parachutes this time =P With Terence giving life-experiences as a commando on his first jump. Wahaha.
Headed to Kembangan with Jon Ma in Terence's car. Were gonna meet Kim. Decided to 'intercept' by walking towards her place instead of waiting at the MRT. Heh, saw her and hid behind the dustbin. In the end she walked behind us -_- due to her 'supersonic eyes that spotted us even from the furthest distance' (which really wasn't very far) lol. So headed to Tm.
Watched the exorcism of emily rose. Not really very afraid, actually. Only jumped at one part (which I shall not say). Only got a little scared when I got off the bus (at night) and had to go home alone. Already Punggol is ulu enough and I'm always on the lookout/tenterhooks making sure no one's stalking me or anything. Then house was dark and empty. Hmm...
I guess the only reason why I watched it was out of curiosity towards demon-possession. And cos it's based on a true story, so they don't have dead people appearing in mirrors or skeletals crawling out of tv screens and crap like that. Yeah. I think 'the mummy' is more terror. Maybe cos back then I was young and stupid and afraid and my faith was still.... an egg. Maybe that's why I'm not as scared this time. My first horror movie. You know? =P
Should slip off my mind soon. Maybe Kim would freak out if she woke up at exactly 3am. Apparently that's when the devil strikes. Mmm... But I guess I'm not afraid, cos the devil doesn't know what we're thinking. He can't read our mind or our hearts. But he can tempt. Ah, what a relief he doesn't know what I think and feel. Phew.
Stupid presentation tomorrow. I can barely talk without sniffling or coughing uncontrollably. How on earth do I present like this? Brr... but anyway. Shall pray that God puts all the words I need in my mouth aiee! Don't wanna die = Mm... Gonna have an early night. My eyes are tired.
Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me within Your mighty hand
When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still
And know You are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust
When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still
And know You are God
I will be still and know You are God.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:35:00 pm
