Saturday, November 18, 2006 :)
Moved, again
No, my blog didn't move, I mean, I'm moved.
Went for 'Get a Life!' on the Doulos this evening, and man was it a good programme. It really challenged me. There was a blackout during the Praise session, but all of us still worshipped, still sang our hearts out. It was really moving, to hear a resounding chorus of voices all in worship of God. No lights, no fan, no air con, no awesome music. But we still worshipped.
When the team performed a skit on how Christians were being persecuted in other countries, where some were killed because they didn't denounce Christ, tears just welled up in my eyes. Though the acting was pretty bad, I was just so touched, so overwhelmed.
Not everyone has the pleasure of worshipping God openly like we can in Singapore. We so easily take for granted the fact that we have no reason to hide our worship, to hide our praise of Him.
I guess we have so many reasons to be thankful, we just haven't experienced life without these things, so we don't know how lucky we are to have them.
You never know what you have till it's gone.
Then the guy talked about how his best friend died because he never really told him about Christ. And I too realised that I've never really told anyone about God, never really evangelised. I've asked people to church, to camps, but I've never had the guts to share what God has done in my life.
And I now know why: I was ashamed of the Gospel. I had no reason to be frightened, to ashamed, but I was a coward. I was afraid of what people might say about me, afraid of being rejected. But I never realised that I needed to share the Gospel, I needed to share the love with those around me.
And I was just overwhelmed once again. I knew he was gonna call, and somehow, I felt someone pushing me. Urging me softly to go forth to missions. I don't know why, but my heart was almost popping out of my chest.
And I raised my hand.
I guess the guy was right, it all changes when you make the decision. Not when you go on board the Doulos, not when you join OM. It changes when you change.
And I've changed, and I feel good about it. I'm gonna go out there and tell my friends about God.
I'm not gonna be ashamed anymore :)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!12:30:00 am
