Saturday, January 06, 2007 :)
Go Choir!
I tell you, I'm sooooooo inspired to do a lot for choir. Strangely, I got that sudden spurt of inspiration while I was showering. Actually I tend to think a lot when I shower, hmmm. Strange. ANYWAY, Sec 1 auditioning was sooooo fun! Maybe that's what makes me inspired. But anyway, I had this brainchild and I had a vision too! I was so excited I wished we were having a choir practice, though it was 11pm, LOL. Anyway, I'll share it with the choir this coming practice xP
To any choir members reading this, I'M REALLY PROUD OF YOU GUYS! And though you guys might not have sung superbly, I don't really care, because I know you guys were putting in effort and enjoying yourselves! And that's what matters most because singing is all about the loooooooove xP
Today, choir auditioning was quite good. Not as many good singers, but there were a few potential Sop 1s, WHOA. They were really good. LOL. And I tell you, Sec 1 boys are small frys. Fries. Frys. Whatever. Heh.
Anyway, it's quite interesting how 1 event can spoil my day. You know, have you ever had the feeling when your best wasn't good enough? Like when you try so hard and nobody's pleased? When you do what you're supposed to and people tell you that you didn't? Sucks, I know. Which is why I was so pissed today.
But I handled the situation totally wrongly. I just got so mad that I turned into 'V', literally, the face, the mind, all. I was just thinking, "whatever la, whatever". Which is bad. And I just turned so bitter and I had so much hatred in me at that point of time, and even tonight while I was showering (see? AGAIN!). Afterall, this wasn't the first time I had that kinda nonsense.
I could've chosen to accept it and just.... accepted it. But no, I chose to be angry. And it's amazing how just one person could make me rebel. Yes, ME. Rebel. I almost did. And I was turning so bitter that in the bathroom I just started crying. And I cried out to God to forgive me, to let His peace and love fill me, and to take away all this bitterness I was feeling towards that particular person. So after a while, sang a few choruses, I came out of the bathroom feeling refreshed :)
Amazing how God works!
Worship prac tonight was quite good, anyway. 3hours cos we had a music lesson before that with Roy. Lol. Actually, I was exhausted. Sick and tired girl, tsk tsk. But I kept reminding myself who I was playing for :) Yay! I'm looking forward to tomorrow :)
A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And when I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!12:30:00 am
