Thursday, August 30, 2007 :)
THANK YOU EVERYONE!
I was gonna type a long list of thankyous, but I'll probably do that later...
Anyway, here's an exerpt from my conversation with Jing Ming. Think it's hilarious.
marianne the zero says (12:39 AM):
OH YA WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE
GO SLEEP LA SIAO KIA
jingming; says (12:39 AM):
i slept for 4 hrs just now
@.@
marianne the zero says (12:39 AM):
so
jingming; says (12:39 AM):
accidentally. in a sense
alarm couldnt wake me up lol
so now i'm wide awake.
marianne the zero says (12:40 AM):
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
joker!
Good night everyone! I'll be praying for all of you :)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!12:40:00 am
Monday, August 27, 2007 :)
He Will Carry Me - Mark Schultz
I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty
You’re strong, I’m weary
I’m holding on
But I feel like giving in
But still You’re with me
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
And He will carry me
I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me
And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through the storm
"Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; He is the faithful God, keeping His covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love Him and keep His commandments."
Deuteronomy 7:9
Thank you, Jesus :)
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So everything is beautiful
Even when the tears are falling
I don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing down
I can hear redemption calling
And everything is beautiful to me :)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!6:56:00 pm
Sunday, August 26, 2007 :)
Even though I'm walking through
A valley of the shadows
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Cos love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I could ever need
He will carry me.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:41:00 pm
I just can't help but cry now.
I'm so blessed. So so so blessed. But I didn't even realise it.
Until today.
I'm just overwhelmed by the love that you guys have shown, the concern and the care that you've given. I'm just so overwhelmed.
Thanks Amanda, for all the encouragement, the prayers, the advice, the love, and most of all, the gift that I know you put your heart into making.
Thanks Evan, for praying, hugging, encouraging, and being so concerned. And of course, for naggyanne, who I can hug now cos there's no one else at home to hug.
Thanks Glenn, for being a brother and friend, and for naggyanne too.
Thanks Emerlyn, for the care, concern, hugs, and for the present.
Thanks Samuel, for being so encouraging and for being the best Sampan Friend I could ever ask for.
Thanks Priscilla, for being the best mei I could have, for encouraging me with that awesome story of yours, I'm so happy for you! =DD And thanks for praying too.
Thanks Melissa, for going all the way to Borders to get me that lovely gift. And for always being there for me and praying.
Thanks Tanya, for showing so much care and concern, and for being the best Bimbo-wannabe ever.
Thanks Roy for praying, listening, and giving so much time although you don't have much of it yourself.
Thanks Sar Tun, Sar Ee and Hannah for sending me all the way home even though you really didn't have to, and thank you for being ever-hospitable and ever-loving even though I so conveniently let my studies prevent me from going to your house.
Thanks Justin, for your present. Really, that was what made me start crying. I'm really so touched that although you're so busy, you thought of me. You're the best brother I could ever have, and I couldn't ask for more. Thanks Just, for being the greatest brother ever.
Thanks Mum and Dad, for being the most supportive and encouraging godly parents I could ever hope for.
Lastly, thank you Jesus, for dying on the cross and giving me purpose in life. For making everything worthwhile, and for writing Your name over mine. Thank you Lord, for all the blessings You've poured upon me, even though I would never have deserved them.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:48:00 pm
Saturday, August 25, 2007 :)
The most difficult decision I've ever made in my life.
The most painful too.
But I'm glad I made it.
Your will above all else,
my purpose remains,
the art of losing myself,
in bringing You praise.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:53:00 pm
I'm so happy with myself =DDD
I woke up at 8am to study! Yes, you know me, the pig. Hahahahahaha. So I only did one chapter of bio, Transport in Plants. But I'm still =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Yay! =D
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:08:00 am
Friday, August 24, 2007 :)
You know, it really feels horrible, when you don't know what to do.
When you really want to do what's right, but you don't even know what is right.
Very painful. But slowly, He's showing me the way to go. I just pray I'll have the strength to do it, cos it's gonna be difficult.
God help me.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!5:12:00 pm
Wednesday, August 22, 2007 :)
YOU'RE A NEW-BORN AUNT! =D (that's what my dear brother told me, so I replied, "You too!" XP)
Little neice born this afternoon! =)
Shayne Lai, born 22 August 2007, 1.53pm!
Thank God! :)
Today's a good day =D A great day =D
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!8:38:00 pm
Friday, August 17, 2007 :)
To Give, To Sacrifice
Was thinking a lot about giving and sacrificing for others last night and this morning. I was just thinking of how much I've been giving for others recently, so much so that I suffer for it. How much time I've been sacrificing, and how much sleep I've been forgoing.
Last night, I just started doubting. Thinking about how wise (or maybe, unwise) it is to give so much of myself when, in the end, I'm the one who's losing out. How much time I'm giving when I could be studying, time which won't ever be won back. How much sleep I'm forgoing, so much so that I can't keep awake for some lessons, and I know I really need to sleep.
I don't know why, but I just started thinking about whether I should stop giving. What a horrible thought, to stop giving. But it didn't occur to me how much I've gained from giving. Not in terms of physical strength or whatever, but I've been so much more blessed by those I give my time to. By those I make sacrifices for.
Sure, sometimes it's difficult for me to give, and sometimes I really don't want to. At times there's even pain in the giving, rather than joy. Then this morning (ya, I was thinking quite long) I realised that life isn't all about me. And the reason why I was doubting was because I was looking at myself rather than at others, focusing on what I need, rather than what others need.
And for some reason, I'd forgotten that I'd received so much. From the people I give to, from the people I make sacrifices for. It didn't dawn on me that they'd probably given even more, and sacrificed even more than I had. Without complaining. Yet here I was, looking at my pathetic little self and feeling pain giving.
And I realised, that if I were just to live my life looking after myself, sleeping sufficient hours so that I would have energy the next day, neglecting those around me so that I can study, life would be pretty meaningless. I don't think that's the kind of life God intends me to have.
So I won't have it :)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!4:10:00 pm
Monday, August 13, 2007 :)
Oh, and I'm sorry if I don't reply tags. I can't see the cbox... I'll reply when I can :)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!6:08:00 pm
THANK THE LORD!! (and I said to myself, Sit down...)
But really, so many things to thank God for. Really! :) Super thankful :)
Thanks Amanda, for talking to me last night. What you said really really encouraged me a lot, and you really helped me realise so many things I didn't realise before. :) Thanks girl -hugs-
Thanks Glenn, for talking to me last night too. Really thankful to have you as a friend :) One day, it will happen. Thanks for everything! :)
And thanks to everyone who smsed me with well-wishes for the oral exam, and congratulations for the Chinese results! :) And of course, all who were praying. Thank you so so much, I'm really touched!
Above all, thank you Lord, for seeing me through the oral exam and giving me words to say, and for blessing me with the most impossible results for Chinese :) Lord, only by Your grace, only through Your strength, and only because of Your love. Thank you Jesus :)
And to all those retaking Chinese, don't be disheartened all right? Just trust in God, who has everything in His hands and under His control :) Just give it your best and whatever comes of it, just offer it to the Lord with thanksgiving :)
And lastly...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMY DARLING!! -hugs- You're really a darling. Thanks for the many many years of laughter, tears, and everything else! Many more to come! (And if it rains, you can come under my umbrella... LOL LOL =P)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!5:30:00 pm
Friday, August 10, 2007 :)
Happy Day! =)
I think I haven't been sooooooo happy in a day for so long. You see, I spent half the day sleeping, and was it shiooooooooooook =P
Ok anyway, from yesterday. Since I haven't blogged about events-in-the-life-of-marianne in SUCH a long time, I shall =P Oh wait, the day before. HAHAHAHA. National Day eve. School ended at around 11, hung around the library to wait for Shermine and headed to Din Tai Fung for lunch. Rather shiok, but the fried rice is super expensive, super small portion, but super nice nonetheless. And of course, this time I ate the Xiao Long Bao properly without burning my tongue. Apparently they teach you HOW TO EAT XIAO LONG BAOS ON THE CHOPSTICKS. Right. But it was helpful =P
Headed home to get ready to head to the PHS carnival. Something very very VERY silly happened on the way, shall not elaborate though. From being 10 minutes early became 10 minutes late........................ =P But worth it la. Duh. HAHAHA.
Reached PHS. Evan, Glenn, Ben, Joel and I. 5 kias, $120 worth of carnival tickets to spend. We seriously tried our best to use up the tickets but it was simply overwhelming. Thank goodness they had an E-ZONE in the school la! Seriously. Super cool, ended up playing mostly Photo Hunt (LOL LOL) and Crazy Taxi. Gosh. We managed to clinch MANY top scores. HAHAHA.
Played some really silly games to use up the tickets, but ended up buying frivolous stuff from the Parent Support Group. Joel was really nice and bought packet drinks and gave them out randomly to people. I think that was a much much much better way to have spent the money. Gave the rest of the tickets to some stranger... Hahahaha.
Headed back to Ben's to have our movie marathon. Watched Scary Movie 3. SERIOUSLY STUPID SHOW. SUPER SUPER FUNNY. And of course, scary........... (I say that with much hesitation and coughs..........) Ok so it's not really scary. It's really just hilarious. Makes me wanna watch the rest. Hahaha. Then watched Shanghai Knights which was funny too.
Went to sleep but woke up around 655264789053 times cos I was freezing. Hahaha. Got up at 6.30 and we attempted to go for a morning walk but it started to rain so we watched Over the Hedge and.... San ge Hao ren. 3 good people? In chinese. Really really movie =) And everything was super nice, until the last part which was a really really stupid scene. Haha.
Headed to Papa's house and was pretty happy to see my relatives though I was pretty upset about something else. But anyway, caught up with them and it was nice. Oh man, Rei made my heart melt. I was playing with him for maybe the last 20 minutes or so before I left. So just before I left Sum Cheng called out to me, "Hey Marianne! Rei wants to give you a hug!" And there comes little Rei running towards me and gave me such a nice hug. Wa, super touched by that little boy. A really sweet and obedient one at that :) Just that he enjoys drooling. A LOT. Even though he's super smart. HAHAHA. Love that boy :)
Got home and talked to a really good friend for quite a while. Had a really good talk, a really meaningful one and I'm glad we did settle lots of things and talk about other stuff too :)
Slept early, with every intention of waking up early. Intention was there. Woke up at 11.45. Around there la. HAHAHA. It was super super super super SUPER windy. Shiok. I think sleeping for 12 hours makes me feel =D Seriously. My mood was so good today. Hahaha. Did lots of work, quite a lot la, I guess =) Went down to collect the mindmaps, that guy. Told me it'd take 15 minutes, ended up waiting an hour. So no Yakun and we headed to the coffee shop for a very large bite since we were going for supper.
CBSI was good, Josiah is super adorable =) His eyes are quite glassy, not sure why though. Hahaha. Had a good talk with Melissa, haven't caught up with her in a while :) Supper was good, and I have no idea why but I was super happy when Desiree said she was coming along. Like, seriously super happy. HAHAHA desire-e are you touched? =P
Supper was good, of course. But quite full ah must say. And the car ride home was super nice. I didn't sleep (first time in a long long long long long time). Of course la, sleep until 11.45 still need to sleep in the car meh? So anyway, talked about quite a lot of funny things with my family. And we were all laughing like crazy about some silly stuff.
Like on the flyover back to Punggol, I was smsing and then...
Dad: I hate it when this slow car drives in front of me. Cannot overtake.
Justin: -laughing- Just overtake la!
Me: -still looking at my phone wondering why my dad wouldn't overtake since that's what he does oh-so-well, without breaking any rules of course =P-
Me: -looks up and sees police car-
Dad: Ah, ah, see this guy coming so fast ah. Sure brake one. Come on, overtake la, come come!
Guy in blue car: -overtakes quite quickly and we see the brakelights come on-
(Insert Hui laughter here)
Dad: Ah another one! See this taxi. Wahhhhhhh speeding. Ok ah, he's gonna brake. Watch ah watch ah!
Taxi: -zooms past, literally ZOOMS, and brakes immediately when he's just behind the police car-
Wah, siao man. Really laugh like mad. Oh well. Nice to laugh with my whole family around =D
So today's been a fantastic day, until I realised something that upset me quite a lot. But I went to repent so I'm ok now =D And I realised I forgive others so much more easily than I forgive myself. And I cry for others so much more easily than I cry for myself too.
So if you need someone to cry with you, call me! :) Or if you need someone to hug or talk to, I'll be here too :)
Anyway, I'm feeling so blessed :) It's really nice to love and be loved. Thank God for loving us, eh? :) Yup. It's really a nice feeling to be in love. Lemon tree =P
Ooooh and I remember what I REALLY wanted to blog about! Diao. Was really encouraged by this passage I read in Revelation 5:11-13.
Then I looked, and I heard around the throne and the living creatures and the elders the voice of many angels, numbering myriads of myriads and thousands of thousands, saying with a loud voice, "Worthy is the Lamb who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and might and honour and glory and blessing!" And I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and in the sea, and all that is in them, saying, "To Him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be blessing and honour and glory and might forever and ever!
I don't know why, but I was just so struck by those few verses. Really amazed me :) How worthy our Lord is of praise :)
Have an awesome week, everyone! :)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:54:00 pm
Saturday, August 04, 2007 :)
Yay, I'm happy!
Although it's 1.06am, I'm glad cos I finished my Thesis on Piano Technique. 5 page long essay, font size 8.5. No joke right. Yup, I'm glad I'm done =) At least I won't waste the lesson tomorrow. Although I have yet to practise. Maybe in the school hall tomorrow. Haha.
And I'm glad cos I got to talk to Daryl the Bong again after so long and we had a pretty insightful/in depth conversation. I guess we still can talk like that despite not talking for a while eh =)
And I'm glad cos CBSI tonight was great. =)
And I'm glad cos I get to sleep now.
Good night =D
Pray I won't fall asleep during Biology tomorrow. Oreo Os, here I come!
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!1:03:00 am
