Tuesday, January 27, 2009 :)
can I complain????
(i don't care what you say i'm gonna complain anyway)
Teachers are evil!!!! I can't even enjoy CNY cos the thought of homework and tests is on the back of my mind, gnawing at me and bugging me because I'm enjoying the new year rather than studying.
Sadistic teachers! Just because they don't need to mark means we have to study more!? Just because it's a holiday?? Come on man. As if there's time to study over the holiday. Teachers are so mean.
That's why I shall become a teacher. REVERT such horrid means of torturing poor, innocent, students as myself.
I shall be the best teacher ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, on to more happy things. HAPPY NEW YEAR =D Haha. Okay. that's all. LOL. no la. actually have a long list of thank yous to type, but sorry, I have to do homework now. (mumbles) So, till next time when I'm free (aka after A levels), sighhhhhhhhhhhhh. I still love my teachers though. Haha. They're nice people. just mean. LOL. No la =) I'm sure they're left with no choice and just doing it for our own good. -nod nod- yesy es, teachers are nice people.
I SHALL STILL BE THE BEST TEACHER THOUGH. ha a ha.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!9:13:00 pm
Saturday, January 17, 2009 :)
My Mama just went home to be with her Saviour this morning. I'm sad, of course I am. I'm really sad actually. Been crying since I woke up, but I want to cry. It makes me feel better. It's so mixed. I'm happy knowing that she's finally not in pain, and that she's finally happy again with Gonggong and Ji Ee and Sar Cek Gong. Finally she's with them, as she's always wanted. Yet my heart aches knowing she's gone, physically.
For more than half of my life she was the only grandparent I had, and she was always so cute and loving.
"Enjoy enjoy your go out!"
"Never eat how to grow fat?"
Always laugh-inducing. :)
I don't even know what to say now, or if I have anything to say. I'll say what I always say to her though, and that I mean from my heart.
Bye bye Mama, I love you!
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:43:00 am
Thursday, January 15, 2009 :)
There are 2 ways to deal with sin:
1. Feel guilty like Judas Iscariot, who took it upon himself to take his life
2. Feel guilty like Peter, who took it upon himself to repent and give his sin up to his Saviour.
I deal with sin like Judas Iscariot; not that I plan to take my life (no i surely hope not) but I'm starting to become hardened. At least I think so. After trying so hard for so long, it's hard not to be stubborn after so many failures.
It seems as though ignoring the guilt and not thinking about it will make everything good again. My foot man. Argh.
Stubbornness kills. Yet because of that stubbornness, it's so hard to repent sincerely, again.
I hope this is just... puberty.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!12:21:00 am
Saturday, January 10, 2009 :)
Ushering in 2009, I made the commitment to live a life that honours God. Or at least, allow Him to use my life for His honour. That is my desire, the desire deep down in my heart that will never be replaced no matter where I go in life. Whether that desire gets clouded by distractions and other forms of self-honour, that desire will always be there.
10 days into 2009 and I can say I've failed living up to that commitment. Failed in the only 2 resolutions I've made. To love God with my heart, soul, and mind. And to love my neighbour as myself. Extremely difficult to do with my own strength, yet that's what I've been doing.
I'm a failure. I think I'm learning to come to terms with the fact that I'm pathetic, hopeless and useless on my own.
But thank God for being my Saviour, for giving me any form of worth that I could possibly have now. Any worth that I have, is because I have Him.
So, with this commitment... Glenn told me before that Love is a commitment. I agree. Love is a commitment. And I love Jesus. I'm gonna be committed to Him.
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!10:24:00 pm
I just finished reading Othello.
I have come to a conclusion.
SHAKESPEARE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!! (now die-hard shakespeare fans, please don't come after me with parangs)
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!6:22:00 pm
Sunday, January 04, 2009 :)
Sin really is the barrier between me and God. Argh.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!11:49:00 pm
