Sunday, October 11, 2009 :)
Realisation...
This morning I suddenly had a very random, and shocking realisation. I think it was when Amanda was praying before beginning the Bible Study, or when I was in the taxi on the way to church. I can't remember when I realised what I realised.
Okay, so I highly doubt it was my own realisation, but probably a realisation that Somebody bigger helped me to realise.
The Realisation? It's this:
Life on earth is temporary, fleeting, even, in light of eternity to come, so why is it that I, and millions of people around me, am spending so much time carving out a name for myself, striving for better grades and being a great and inspiring leader to prove my worth, when this life is going to end soon and all that is gonna come to nothing?
Maybe the realisation is also in light of the skit I saw on the Doulos yesterday. Life is so much more than studies, work, sleep, food. Yet the life in Singapore revolves predominantly around studies and work, there's no denying that. People, even (and especially) Christians, are the first to push aside service in Church and relationships with family and friends so that they can study/work and climb up the corporate ladder/be the best in school/get 4As.
I actually find it very sad. When lives that are meant to mean so much more are trivialised so much so that people find life meaningless. When God has given each and every one of us a purpose on this earth - and it's not to become the top student in MJC, or the most renowned CEO in Singapore, or the most famous Hollywood celebrity.
It's ironic how our view of life can become so hazy, how our purpose in life can become so unclear, when it really is that simple - to glorify God and enjoy Him forever.
Forever starts now. It started before we were around, really.
I've been feeling more and more strongly about serving God on the Doulos. Reaching out to the people God loves, drawing close to Him and giving my life to serve Him. I actually don't even mind going for 2 years after I get my results, then coming back later to go to Uni.
Yet sometimes I question my own intentions - is it God's calling, or is it my own desire to have "the experience of a lifetime" on the Doulos, a ship I've kinda grown up with, whose people I've grown to love.
I need to pray. A lot. I don't need to know now what God has in store for me; I just need the assurance that the decisions I make will be what God wants for me and not what I want for myself.
What, ho, what, ho, what, ho!6:08:00 pm
